Month: March 2022

Yet, there wasn’t really any room on that side. So maybe the other day, it didn’t feel like somebody was on me, just by me, but no room.

I ended up staying in bed till 11 AM. I didn’t want the feeling to go away. I like when dogs sleep by me. Buddy slept with his head on my foot every night. He actually required to be on my bed. I had to help him get on my bed when he got older. That’s because once he was potty trained, I asked him to get on my bed. Rather anybody else wanted him on my bed didn’t matter, I wanted a dog on my bed. That might have been a smaller bed too. Luckily, he was the only dog at the time. Would be hard to have three dogs on that bed.

But I ended up with three dogs on my bed, and a cat. Maybe four dogs, as I think Chibi got up there sometimes too.

Pretty sure if Bodhi came in my apartment, he’d jump on my bed. That’s the first thing Sofie did when she came to visit. But she probably smelled Tonka up there. She was like rubbing her head or something on my bed. She only had Sofie like two years, she was old when she got her. Her people should have kept her, or kept her in the family. It’s cruel getting rid of your old dog. Sofie and Tonka were the same smart. They got in my grandparent’s house, and went exactly where everybody was. They weren’t inside because of the pugs. The pugs had some issues with other dogs, if they didn’t, Sofie and Tonka probably would have been inside.

Somehow they knew exactly where everybody was inside. They walked directly to the room where everybody was.

I wish I took Tonka and Buddy on more walks. Both of them would have been super happy if they got more walks. Tonka wouldn’t have even required long walks, in fact, if you went too far, she’d probably just sit down. That’s why Buddy got out of the yard, he didn’t get enough exercise. Meiko would always go back and be in the yard, Tonka and Buddy would just be running together. Not running away, as we had no problem getting them. They were trying to tell us, they needed to run and/or go on more walks.

Good reason not to get a dog, I don’t like walking. I don’t have to exercise if I get no dog. Also, I don’t want another Ruby.

No room for anybody to be on the bed by my side, but it felt like somebody was actually on top of me on that side, while sleeping. Unless they were on the other side, then there’d be room.

Tonka does know I’d let her sleep on top of me. Something outside scared her once, and she laid on me sideways, and peed on me. I didn’t get mad at her, I just took a shower.

But it’s probably how I cope with the loss of her, by making it feel like somebody is by me in bed, or I guess on top of me, if there’s no room for them to be by me.

That was the first time it felt like somebody was actually on top of me though. I also slept until after 11 AM, cause I didn’t want the feeling to ever go away. Oh and I wanted to move to the dream world.

Good luck proving somebody was there or not. Not sure any camera would show anything. Do they make a thermal camera you can run for a long time and record the entire time? Maybe, but probably expensive. It probably wouldn’t capture anything anyways. It’s possible when in the spirit realm, you can send signals to the living. So you can’t prove I made it feel like it, or somebody else did. Seeing as humans aren’t aware of their own life essence, you aren’t going to prove anything that involves it.

Maybe the title should have been “Felt like somebody was on my side”.

Bummer. Will there ever be one?

On another note, the Hat Man might be an Alien. I saw something about the Hat Man when searching for Blackwell Ghost 6. The last episode of Ancient Aliens talked about shadow people. Somebody said they might be all different entities. That is not all are Aliens, or the same Aliens.

Not sure I believe that, as somebody said they saw a reptilian that was inside a cloak or something. Their cloak may have malfunctioned. The reptilians have a bad rap, so they could be evil.

Something said they were banished by God to live underground.

Speaking of God, if you evolve enough, can you do what we think of as God stuff? There could be a supreme being, but there could also be a ton of evolved beings. So who’s to say an Alien couldn’t create a heaven for humans? And not allow other Aliens to enter that dimension. Apparently there’s a dimension that humans can enter, but some Aliens can’t, and they can’t figure out why.

They might as well be a God. To a baby human, probably almost all Aliens are like a God.

Apparently our tech was way more advance then we currently are, before we got wiped out the third time. We probably became a danger to other species on different planets, and therefore wiped us out yet again. We might be allowed to kill ourselves, since apparently we won’t stop, but other species might not be allowed. You are basically in a death machine, if you are a human. Reincarnate and possibly get blown up again.

We punish ourselves, by killing each other. We will probably get wiped out a fourth time as well. Or wipe ourselves out.

I punish myself by being sad and missing my dead dog.

Maybe that’s just what happens if you make primates smarter.

Tonka may have proved to me more than once she still exists, yet I’m still miserable. I can believe God, and having a soul or life essence, and I’m still miserable.

Perhaps I’ve existed longer then this life, and can’t remember why I’m miserable. So maybe wiping our memory isn’t such a great idea.

All I did was go downstairs to get my laundry. But it recorded lots of balls of lights.

One recording, I assume the video compression, made what looks like a toilet on the wall, but keeps changing it. Maybe the camera lost it’s fucking mind too.

Damn, if this was an adult site, I could make adult videos for it. I’d have to put a warning on it. I can think of a better paranormal adult domain, but somebody probably already has it.

I’m too lazy to upload anything it recorded. Nothing much different then what’s on here. I don’t need to publish every video with balls of lights. The only thing different is the toilet video compression on the wall.

So what any time of the day, that it is dark enough for IR, it might record something? It seems to have recorded more in the small amount of time I was downstairs, then all of while sleeping.

I will publish another UFO like video and/or picture though. That is the most convincing it’s not a bug or dust. Hasn’t seemed to record anything like that again yet though. I’m too lazy to do a paranormal investigation.

Unless it’s a dirty paranormal investigation, then I’d have to publish it on my porn domain.