Month: April 2022

But if “orbs” can be easily explained away, and are what my camera is recording, what are they? She didn’t say what orbs are if it can be explained away.

I know it isn’t dust. I don’t think it’s always close to the camera. And some are more solid.

I call it lights or balls of lights. The camera doesn’t record the same amount of every night. If it was easily explainable, shouldn’t it record the same amount every night? I’m sleeping when it records the lights. Therefore I’m not doing anything that would make them appear.

Oh and some of them blink in and out. Can she explain that too? And the UFO shaped one?

It’s still recording stuff, I’m just too lazy to upload anymore videos. Maybe if one of them shows themselves as a human or dog, I’ll upload it. I’d also like an explanation of that from her, since she appears to know everything. Hopefully none of the lights look like a creature, human or anything else, that might freak me out.

Considering how little humans know, the balls of light could be anything. Well, some people know more, but aren’t telling anybody else. Like what they know about Aliens. Don’t think the lights are Aliens, as they wouldn’t be as interested in me. Or maybe they are for some reason. Perhaps they need to figure out what went wrong with me. I did wake up with my watch on my pillow once. How did the watch get off? I woke up with the thought of my watch on the pillow. I probably took it off myself for some reason.

But it would be funny if Aliens took it off. They really aren’t trying to harm humans in that case. I don’t think I’ll ever be awake if I ever get abducted. That’s a bad idea. They would most likely to everything to keep me a sleep. If I wake up, I might go nuts. You can believe Aliens exist, but still be scared shitless of them. The same with spirits.

So if it isn’t dust what is it? Too bad she only said it can be explained orbs of light. But she has nothing to back it up. And if it’s a camera glitch, how come some blink in and out? Oh right, multiple glitches.

Now if it can’t be explained, and they are spirits, I have no idea what they are doing. Perhaps trying to tell me you exist after dying. Not sure telling me anything will accomplish anything though. With cognitive decline, I’ll forget anyways.

I’d still like to know what she explains lights as. Or orbs as she calls them.

If I did an investigation, I’d just ask them to turn the monitor on. The monitor gets turned on when sleeping sometimes. That’s about the only thing I can do that a neighbor probably can’t do. If you get a REM pod or something, you’ll just get radio signals. A ghost box costs too much I think. You can get a cheaper thing sort of like it. I’d rather make one with a Raspberry Pi. Make something like the Blackwell Ghost guy made. Actually, it’s possible just a keyboard and Raspberry Pi would work. Have a text document open. If your intention is for them to use it, I don’t think it really matters what it is. They can probably do more then you think.

But that would scare the shit out of me too. So I think I’ll do no investigation. I don’t need high blood pressure like the Blackwell Ghost guy.

Spirits can turn sinks on. So I think they can use a keyboard, or manipulate a computer. Do you even need a keyboard? Can you just get a display and leave a text editor open? Or get a touch screen. Then you don’t need a big ass monitor.

They could type on my computer, but the video would scare the shit out of me. Also, the camera can’t see the monitor right, it’s overexposed or something. Once it wakes up.

It’s also possible a hacker is doing it. Except the Mac mini does it too. Perhaps one of the drives is vibrating a ton on the desk some days, but not everyday. That doesn’t make sense though, the drive should vibrate a ton everyday.

If I leave some trans porn playing all night, will they stop it? And will I dream about trans women and nothing else? Hmm, put the sound of frogs on instead. Or record yourself saying “Go to sleep”. And dream about sleeping.

Last night, or early this morning, when I was falling a sleep. I felt a surge of love go through my body, from my head to my feet. Might be similar to what people experience when having a near death experience. Possibly not as strong though. I immediately knew it was Tonka, and said “I love you Tonka”. Then my feet felt warm, they weren’t under the blanket, as I was a little hot when I went to bed, at least my feet. Don’t know if she made my feet warm, or my foot being on top of the other one did. I also then went from almost falling a sleep, to fully awake, to think about what just happened.

Keeping me warm is something Tonka would do, I still remember, one night I think it got really cold, but I didn’t wake up cold, when I woke up, Tonka was on the bed right by me, keeping me warm all night. She wasn’t always on the bed with me, because she didn’t like pets and kisses in bed. She liked her space. Possibly she was hot too, she had a lot of hair. But If I was going to get cold, she’d go up there. She knew she could go on the bed, as in my room, the dogs were always allowed on furniture. She actually thought she wasn’t supposed to go on furniture in my living room. But she was allowed on any of my furniture. I did see her on my futon once, I took a picture, and thought it was funny. No I didn’t make her get down. It was her futon after all. Just like the bed is her’s. And the apartment.

She was probably with me all night/morning.

I did come to the realization at some point, that I need to let go of stuff. Not sure when I came to that, it might have been when sleeping. Well, with enough of that feeling going through me, anything is possible. That’s probably a more efficient anti depressant then the drug I take for it. Or maybe that should be “drugs” with an s. At least two of them, can help with depression.

But I think part of the reason I need to let go, is lots of stuff makes me mad, and I don’t let it go. Or am I dying soon, and therefore need to start letting go of everything? Or maybe both. If I’m dying soon, that is kind of depressing, I’m not exactly old yet.

Or maybe it will take me a long ass time to let go of everything, so I need to start now, so when I’m 80+, I’m ready to go.

I suppose I could have made the surge of love I felt myself. But I sure thought Tonka did it, and was there.

Why does only Tonka interact with me? Probably a lot of reasons, she was the last one to die, we are probably connected the most, I think I would have had to live alone with Buddy to get as connected as I am to Tonka, I was extremely connected to him though. Also, why should anybody else interact if I’m not going to listen to them? I’m most likely going to listen and do something if it’s coming from Tonka. My dad can’t really interact, because he doesn’t want to scare me, or make me mad. We had no relationship, so he doesn’t know me, and I don’t know him. He’s probably just observing.

The security camera only records lights, no shadow entities or anything like that. They may be protecting me, or some other force is.

I don’t think the security camera is ever going to record anything other then lights. The reason is simple, I get scared easily.

Tyler Henry said spirits don’t generally interact because they don’t want to make the grieving process worse. So I think everybody has free will, and can choose to interact if they want. Tonka knows me the best. I suppose my great grandparents might know me good as well, they’ve probably been watching me my entire life. They probably know me better then my dad.

Somebody talked through me once and told me to calm down. I was dreaming, and it was stressing me out. I do wonder if I would have had a heart attack from a dream, if that voice didn’t tell me to calm down. I calmed down right away. Who’s voice that is, I don’t know. I wish I had a recording of it.

There’s no point in telling this to anybody in my family, they don’t believe the stuff I do.

The person talking through me, made my beliefs stronger. Oh and just look at Skinwalker Ranch, there’s all kinds of odd stuff happening there. That nobody seems to be able to explain. So clearly humans don’t know everything.

It’s already set to record on Channels DVR.

Good show, lots of unexplained stuff happens on it. They probably need to go underground to actually figure anything out. Possibly need to go up as well. Could be something in the sky causing some stuff to happen.

The not so good part of the show, is animals getting attacked/eaten alive. I think that’s what happened in one episode, the animal was being eaten alive, if I remember right.

The last two days, the security camera hasn’t been recording as many lights. Balls of lights, or whatever you want to call it.

Hmm, perhaps it really was recording spirits.

They could be in my room, more now, there’s no camera in there. Or they could have left, or aren’t making themselves visible.

So maybe I don’t need to review my security camera footage anymore.

Sex must have happened here.

That’s mostly what Portals To Hell is, talking about how they feel. Good luck proving they feel one way or another. But it’s back on if you want to watch it. The Blackwell Ghost is better.

Oh he proved it, by saying he feels the same as her. Sure.