Author: Tom

What is something I can do about? My feelings. Don’t like a feeling, I can re frame my thoughts. Well, the counselor said that about agitation. Not sure I ever completely stopped doing that after it worked with agitation. Not sure completely stopping will work either.

Might get easier though.

Well, the printer was clogged since January 12th. Cause I must have printed a test page then, and it printed after I unclogged it.

Printed another page too, and no issues. Before unclogging it, I looked up the Brother HL-2140 and openSUSE Tumbleweed, and it uses Brother HL-2060 Foomatic/hl1250, according to the openSUSE wiki.

So it still works just fine, good to know. In case I need to print, I don’t need a different printer.

I can re frame the “lazy” and “took a long time” thoughts as well.

I don’t like feeling bad, so I think I’ll just re frame a lot of thoughts.

Also, it seemed to get less intensive really quickly before today as well, the thinking.

No medicine is going to 100% solve mental illness or any feeling. Re framing seems to help me a lot though.

Also, nobody can help me, if I don’t help myself. Doesn’t matter who I ask either.

May or may not need to read the OCD book. First I need to re frame my thoughts. I can test it out on the book as well. Just did so with the printer.

Unscrewed one screw, then thought, that there has to be another way to get the paper out. I just had to remove the toner and drum. I don’t remember everything, and it probably happened before. But I don’t use it very often. Good to have it though. Didn’t want to do that, and ended up doing it anyways. So I could have re framed that, and removed it anyways to begin with. But that doesn’t matter, it’s unclogged.

Memory problem or not, the best thing for me to do is focus on now.

Apparently ADHD symptoms, are similar to manic depression symptoms.

Or is just having messed up sleep, enough for it to be manic depression?

Nothing like waking up early, to pee, then not being able to fall back a sleep for hours, and then only getting an extra 1-2 hours of sleep. All cause I was thinking too much.

I wonder how long I’ve done that though or been able to do that. I remember in the past, I could just think a bunch if I wanted to.

But who said I can’t stop? Only me. Also, I kind of started already. I was re framing a whatever a thought is. Apparently a thought describes more then one thing. A feeling, must be a thought. A word might be a thought. Some people can think with pictures. What about impulses?

Well, it was better, when my head was nice and empty. I wonder, people that mediate, how does it work, if you just keep thinking?

No wonder sleeping is better. I don’t have to try and think. It’s easy, and fast, and I don’t have to do anything. I have slept for 10+ hours before, but didn’t have to do anything.

Well, I can make the time fly easily by thinking too. Just don’t look at a clock, and just think..

Well, I could ask a lady, if they want to get manic now.

I wonder what the difference between manic depression and ADHD is. They both have fast thinking. Or is racing thoughts different? No idea, sounds the same to me.

Racing thoughts sounds helpful. This, not so much.

Well, I could always run around in a circle, and try to catch my tail.

We’re all going to be crying someday anyways

When we’re reborn, we’ll be crying again

Might as well start now, as we’re all going to die anyways

Take off your high heels

And let’s have some fun

While we’re here anyways

Let’s all have a blast

Let’s all kiss some ass

Let’s all have some fun, let’s all give ourselves an orgasm

That might be a good way, to forget stuff. Like if your neck itches. Might still itch. Maybe not as much.

Might even forget you have depression as well.

Can’t see that many ways for somebody to just get a hyper active brain though, without being born that way, or a side effect, or maybe a psychical problem.

Well, they do say humans forget eventually anyways. Might not even have to die first.

Is that the last episode of South Park?

If it’s cancelled, I’ll be down to two channels I watch for $35 a month. Don’t want any of the other services they give me for $35 a month either. And if they’re cancelling shit now, I might as well not pay for any TV.

I doubt they’d just cancel the show themselves.

There’s a funny looking baby in one of the new episodes as well.

I can get just one channel I watch for under $!0 a month anyways, from Frndly TV. Might be able to record it without using a web browser as well. So if that still works, and keeps working, it’s a better value anyways.

Had to fix the thing myself when it broke. All it takes is one little change on their site, to break it as well. It’s a cat and mouse game. But they don’t even have to try very hard to break it.

The reason I’m not sharing my modification, unless I cancel it. Then I’ll share it. Too lazy to make it better, so it’s harder for them to break it, just like all the other crap I found that uses a web browser.

Not buying a Android box, and a capture card, and doing all that either. They can likely break that too, without much effort.

Easier if I can’t record from Frndly TV easily, to pay a little more for the DVR, and just use their shitty DVR. Cheaper then DirecTV Streaming as well. Philo costs too much as well. The only one I’d pay for is Frndly TV if I can’t record what I record to my own storage easily. Easy enough for now.

But if South Park is cancelled, I will need to think about it some more, and maybe cancel DirecTV.

There seems to be less freedom of speech nowadays as well, oddly. And not just about South Park either.

But the Big Brain Wash is about the only thing that makes sense.

Of Expedition X. I remembered somebody said it takes a long ass time to get any “evidence”. Therefore I need the full video.

I guess it’s entertaining. More entertaining then Ancient Aliens. But more entertaining then Expedition X, is probably Skinwalker Ranch.

I should make my own paranormal show. I’ll be butt naked in it. Maybe with a cowboy hat too. If anything odd happens, I probably won’t notice though.

Unless odd as in I give myself a boner without touching it. Then I’ll be growing too.

Doesn’t look like the holy ones are having any luck getting people to stop sinning.

Might as well say, if you have a sex drive, you’re sinning. And if you’re a human, you’re sinning.

I do have to ask something, what would happen if I put a rem pod up my ass?

If a grower, puts their cock in a cage, and their cock grows in the cage, and they break their cock, do they get free surgery?

If they do, then they can have a vagina above their ball sack.

I put my cock in a cage.

She went all wild.

She’s a wild woman…

Well, I need to ask somebody, if they know how to make a fake window. And where to buy some plastic to make the fake window.

Karma was invented, to explain stuff. Religion, theories, and conspiracy theories were invented for the same reason. Might as well say religion is a conspiracy theory now a days. People are still inventing new ones.

Subwoofers were invented to piss people off, why do you think some people have a loud subwoofer in their vehicle?

What’s good for a police state? Less people.

A bunch of people died during the COVID “hoax”.

And a bunch more people might be dying soon as well.

The COVID “hoax” a bunch of people world wide died as well. A bunch of people continue dying in Ukraine. And in the other wars going on as well.

At least the Holy Ones, know what’s good for humanity.

Had to get a shit sample, and that diarrhea, had some darker colored blood in it, which means it could be coming from my stomach.

And I could have an ulcer in my stomach.

I’ll find more out soon enough most likely.

If it’s an ulcer, it must be bleeding really slow though and my body must be able to replace it fast enough.