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And the monitor woke itself up too while in bed.

If any dog was actually by me, Tonka was one of them most likely. Buddy or Meiko could be the other one. Apparently I let go of Buddy dying, probably after taking Tonka home. But letting go of Tonka was harder. Not sure I completely let go of her dying yet. Almost completely. I know how to let go now, love.

The good news is, the sleep doctor said my sleep apnea isn’t bad enough for them to do anything. If I want another appointment that’ll take a year, that’s too long. They need to observe some people where they usually sleep, not somewhere else. So in other words, there isn’t anything they can do for me. At least not in this city.

If you go somewhere else, you can take the stuff home, and do it in your own bed. At home sleep test.

Think it happened yesterday too. Did again while eating lunch today.

You could say it’s software related, I have no idea. Does FreeSync make it wake itself up? If so, it should do it more often. I could disable FreeSync and see if it wakes itself up. But I think it has woke up when FreeSync was disabled, it was disabled for a long time without knowing.

You’d think if the camera was causing it, it would still be recording orbs.

But after posting this, no more orbs. So maybe they are unexplained.

I was over by the door, saw a fly, finally remembered to look at security camera footage. The IR was on.

Looks like a streak. Like light, but not like an orb.

So yes, you can see flies on IR. At least small ones, don’t look like an orb. You’ll barely see it though, and without IR, would be hard to see most likely.

I could upload the video, but I’m lazy, and in it.

No idea what they look like closer on the IR though.

No idea why, it isn’t Steam, Steam wasn’t running, that’s why I don’t leave Steam open.

Tonka may have been by me in bed, but not until I put the blanket all the way over myself. So no idea, if she really was.

But she’s on TV, what do you expect? Now some people on TV aren’t babes.

Still no proof for some Swamp Monster, they couldn’t verify what animal they captured on drone. Lots of evidence, not of the same creature possibly. The foot casts may be useless, and they found an alligator.

Didn’t know any animals went after pigs though. No wonder they become mean as fuck, and some are that are on farms. Everybody eats them. Humans are the worst though, we eat too much meat.

In the future, there may be no stores to buy meat at anymore, so I won’t be eating meat anymore.

But the noise they recorded sounded horrible.

There may be some unknown organization that has advanced tech, could be just humans, or humans and others.

They don’t seem to have humanity in their interests though, as if they did, we’d all know about them.

Just watch the last episode of Beyond Skinwalker Ranch. They suggest there’s some secret organization.

Clearly no laws or anything applies to them.

The others may be androids though, sent by who knows who.

Probably Tonka. The blanket was pushed down on one side, and then when I rolled over, the other side.

If it was pushed down on the side my back was on, that would indicate Tonka. But I don’t remember. Not even sure how I knew the blanket was pushed down to tell you the truth.

I do know, I was too tired to get out of bed when I woke up. Apparently 8 or more hours of sleep isn’t enough, neither is 9 or more. What about ten hours? Probably not.

Love is the most powerful force in the universe, and it wasn’t made randomly. Love being randomly made, doesn’t make any sense. Not sure there would be any feelings, if humans are a random creation.

Not sure if it was software related or not. Maybe not, the install of something on my Switch, was done 11 minutes before I noticed.

I do wonder if you can really be stuck here though out of your body. If so, that kind of sucks. And hopefully I’m not causing anybody to be stuck here.

Hopefully they are just visiting, coming back and fourth. Tonka may be here a ton though.

And if you can get stuck here, that may happen to me as well. The reason I should mediate, so perhaps I can let go of sadness and anything else. Don’t talk about mediation with anybody though, the one person I talk to, gets pissed. I guess some people are against relaxing via mediation.

Clearly I don’t speak to anybody who’s beliefs align at all with mine. Perhaps nobody’s beliefs do. Bummer.

Lots of people are against reincarnation as well. But I’d reckon, no memory, and not being stuck here, could be better.

But I’m not sure your soul remembers everything, possibly only certain things. So even if you don’t reincarnate, you still won’t remember everything.

And that episode of Expedition X, may not be dealing with human souls at all. Could be something worse. If you torture and abuse people, perhaps the place will get a lot of bad energy. But humans refuse to believe most things like that, so they do it anyways. Or maybe they simply don’t care.

Don’t forget other dimensions, the horrible asylum, could be still happening somewhere, we can’t see. And somehow leaking over here. You’d think there’d be more leaking though.

Either way, not sure I’d recommend watching it the night it airs. You may have issues sleeping.

There’s bad Gods? I thought there was only one God though. I’m talking about the God, above all life, including more advanced beings.

I guess only slaves see it wrong as being a slave. We might not be slaves anymore though. Guess they changed their mind.

How do you get a soul without an actual God?