While sleeping. I didn’t fully wake up, but felt like somebody was by me. I didn’t want to fully wake up, because the feeling might have went away. That time, it might have been the thing you can wake up with, and see and hear things that aren’t there. Can you feel things that aren’t there as well?

The only problem with me making it happen, is I’d think I’d feel somebody by me every night/morning. And all day long. Tonka wouldn’t be on my bed every night/morning, if she was doing it.

So what, I can make myself warm if it gets super cold? Nice, going nuts actually is useful for something.

Need to smack the pillow in the kitchen with the lights off. To see if you can even see it in the kitchen.

I won’t be convinced all the stuff being recorded isn’t dust, until it stops for long enough and then moves again. Just floating by, doesn’t sound intelligent. As if you watch what’s being recorded, it makes no sense. Why would something intelligent just zoom by the camera?

The one with it blinking in and out is kind of weird though. Probably just farther away, and for some reason didn’t stay lit up.

The heater is off, so there isn’t a ton of air being moved around. Just the air purifier. I left it off, as it’s around 70F in here. Clearly don’t need it on.

Now if one of those light balls, sit in my chair, I might be convinced it isn’t dust. It shouldn’t disappear when sitting in the chair either, and should stay there for a good five seconds.

I should just stop watching all the crap my camera records while sleeping. It’s just recording dust, lots of dust. But I need to see if I was sleep walking, or a sleep wanking.

Update
The experiment was a failure, that is either the pillow has no dust now, or you can’t see it in the kitchen. It has to be right in front of the camera. Need to turn the light off again, and test right in front of the camera.

Well, no idea if the blinking light was right in front of it, or in the kitchen. Need a camera that says the distance. Stupid camera didn’t record anything the next test. Or it’s slow at uploading to the NFS share. Just slow. Now to watch it again, and see if any look like they are in the kitchen.

The pillow has plenty of dust left. So if anything is being recorded farther away, it probably isn’t dust.

Since I have no way to know the distance, I can’t say if it’s dust or not. Dust has to be right in front of it. Believe it is whatever you want it to be. I might still consider it dust, strange dust, that is being recorded a lot. The blinking dust is the strangest. Blinking in and out, didn’t know dust did that, but apparently it does.

I was fully awake, and I felt it after being awake until I got out of bed. The thing you wake up with and see stuff that isn’t there, usually happens when just waking up. That actually hasn’t happened for a long time. Might only happen to me if I wake up in the middle of the night and then fall back a sleep. That is I don’t fully wake up.

I looked down, and there was only a blanket there. Felt heavy like a brick, a blanket isn’t heavy like a brick.

I could just be going more insane. Maybe soon I’ll feel something or somebody by me 24/7. Good way to cope with your dead dog, go insane. I mean more insane.

Does dust blink? Looking at my security camera footage. It didn’t stay a solid color, or didn’t look like it did. Blinking in and out or something.

Just smack a pillow in front of the IR camera. Some guy did it on YouToot. So I tried it, with a small pillow that’s by the camera. Looks similar to what’s being recorded all night long.

The only room a security camera might record something unexplainable, is my room.

So I think I’ll go ahead and make the fake paranormal video later. I’ll assist the spirit with knocking. Might be easier with a tripod. I have a little tripod, except I couldn’t attach my camera to it for some reason. I have a big tripod as well.

I’m too lazy to do a real paranormal investigation. That’s boring as fuck. At least if I talk to myself, and do the knocking, it’s not as boring.

Lots of dust

Those “lights” are probably dust. I was recording with my phone, and it recorded dust.

Well, at least the dust, got me to do something. I should trash all the videos on this site. And wait until I have a video of something that isn’t dust.

Going to search what dust looks like on IR.

It’s most likely dust. Going to delete two of the videos and leave the fly or dust video.

The sidebar is shown on every page now. Well, maybe not attachment pages.

The last package came today. So maybe I’ll make the video. Might be boring as fuck, as I don’t intend on doing anything. Like asking questions. I’ll be sitting in the dark. Just watch Blackwell Ghost. He doesn’t do a regular paranormal investigation.

He also does it for more then one day.

Or maybe I should say this morning. It was after 12 am before I went to bed.

I woke up and the blanket was pushed down on one side. Like somebody was there. That is something Tonka would do.

I suppose I could have done it while sleeping. You’d need a camera in there to know. But a camera in there might capture something that freaks me out and I won’t want to sleep in there anymore.

Maybe that’s how I automatically cope with the loss of her.

The living room security camera recorded the lights again while sleeping and while awake. I turned the lights off then remembered I needed to put stuff on my hand. Didn’t turn the living room or kitchen light on when I went to the bathroom to put it on my hand. It recorded the light while I was in the bathroom and when I was standing in front of the doorway to my room. I think that’s where I was standing. I’d have to watch the video again.

I saw nothing, no bugs or anything else. But not sure if I was really looking for anything.

If it was dark enough for the IR all the time, it might record that light even more.

How come only IR can see it? Apparently they don’t want me to see it with my naked eyes. Humans can’t see everything. Can I get an upgrade that can see IR? Well, I might go nuts if I can see more stuff. Except I already am nuts. This site wouldn’t exist if I was sane.

The Blackwell Ghost style? He doesn’t ask questions really, just sits in the dark, and sees if anything happens.

That might be the best way to do it, then you don’t have to possibly talk to yourself. Not sure those haunting me will do anything if I don’t ask though. There was knocking on the wall by my computer one night, I don’t know if somebody in the building did it, or something unexplained. They would have had to be where the stairs are, hard to believe anybody in the building would do that. Unless they are messing with me. I got mad, so if that was a spirit doing that, they probably won’t do it again, without asking.

Those haunting me, it isn’t to scare me. More likely love.

If you don’t believe in hauntings and stuff, it may not happen, they don’t want to waste their time probably. Or you’ll just shrug everything off. Maybe go to the doctor and say you are hearing and/or seeing things. So is your security camera.

I’m still waiting for all the stuff for my phone to come. Phone probably does better video then my camera.