I was in bed, missing Tonka, and I think another dog. I then felt somebody by me in bed on one side, then somebody else on the other side. Not sure if I felt two bodies by me at the same time, or they moved to the other side.

Also, can’t recall who else I was missing. Probably one of the other dogs I grew up with. Don’t know if I cried in bed or not, or was just missing dogs.

Well, the crying doesn’t ever stop, as when I woke up, I was crying in the bathroom. It doesn’t matter how many years it’s been since she died.

Do some people experience nothing after somebody they love dies? It’s hard to believe that would happen. If so, there’s probably a ton of variables involved as to why not. Could simply be whoever died, doesn’t want to do anything. Well, Heaven, is supposed to be so good, you never want to leave.

If you are praying for somebody who died, that creature will hear all your prayers. I assume that isn’t just people, but dogs will know too. They might get it all at once as well. Because time doesn’t exist there.

Believe what you will, free will allows you to. I still think having no free will to not believe in God would be better, so be a dog. Or do they have free will to believe or not God? It’s possible they just simply know about God. As far as I know, all dogs go to Heaven. Humans that’s debatable. Doesn’t mean you go to Hell, there’s also reincarnation. And proof for it. Simply not living as long as God wanted you to live, could result in reincarnation.

Hauntings sounds like a bad thing. Perhaps you should say love never ends.

The monitor finally got turned on for unknown reasons, I wasn’t even by it.

Perhaps those who I can’t see doing less, will accomplish more somehow. Too much interaction could backfire.

Believe what you will, I prefer to believe somebody I can’t see is waking the monitor up. I already know love doesn’t end when your body dies. Love wouldn’t exist without God.

The Blackwell Ghost guy already proved love exists forever. I doubt he’s making fake videos. He gets too scared for it to be fake, like sleeping in his car. And how do you explain that email that got sent that he didn’t do? Look at the time it was sent, and if he was sleeping, well there you go. Look at his history to see if he setup an automated email. Or just believe him, because he probably has no good reason to make it up. Once you watch the later ones, you’ll see something horrible happened to him. Well, to his entire family.

Thanks to free will, you can believe whatever the fuck you want. You can believe you are a robot. With no feelings, and no love.

Maybe my computer has malware, as it’s faster right now. Or maybe the Firefox extensions got updated, and made it faster. Or maybe I’m just going insane.

Wanted to remove the video plugin I had. On shared hosting now, so that plugin isn’t being used for new videos. You aren’t going to encode videos on shared hosting, at least not the shared hosting I have.

Also, the latest update to the plugin, causes issues with clearing the database in LiteSpeed Cache. It still does it, but also says there’s a problem with your site. Probably a security risk keeping it as well.

Felt like at least two creatures by me in bed this morning. One on each side of me.

Well, the first thing I noticed, was I woke up early, and felt pressure on my stomach, like somebody was by my stomach. Not sure if I was dreaming, or hallucinating, but saw a cat that looked like Oadis. I saw him on my actual bed. But not sure my actual bed, or just in my mind. That feeling wasn’t there when I woke up.

I may have been having issues breathing because of the pressure on my stomach, but I ain’t telling a cat or any animal with or without a body, to not lay by me.

I may have done a petting motion where I thought they were laying. Hard to remember, I know I thought about doing so. I’m pretty sure I was wide awake, so no idea why it’s hard to remember.

After that, I didn’t feel anybody by my stomach anymore, lower down.

If only two creatures, perhaps Buddy and Tonka. But I might have felt somebody by my back, not right by me though. Three creatures, is obviously all three of the dogs I grew up with, Buddy, Meiko, and Tonka.

If all three dogs were here last night, Tonka was probably the one not right by me.

It is Tonka’s bed, so she can go on it whenever she wants. Anybody can go on her bed, if she wants them on it. Maybe an elephant will visit me. Not sure how they’ll fit, I guess by not being in a body. It might be dead obvious if an elephant is on my bed while sleeping.

Remember, love never ends, it’s forever.

And the pressure on my stomach, may have been a message. Such as something wrong with me. Somebody’s living I think dog told them about something by pushing their head on their stomach or something.

I thought something may happen, I washed my bedding yesterday. And when I woke up too early, I then was thinking stuff happens in there all the time, I’m just not aware of it.

Sorry, no camera goes in my bedroom. I don’t want anything to stop happening, and I don’t want to watch myself sleep. Some people like being haunted. I consider everything they do as love. I suppose you could get a negative haunting. But I have complete faith in God, and the divine, that they will protect me.

Oh and I woke up actually somewhat happy today. But why did it take more then one creature to get the message of love across? I’m pretty sure Tonka has done stuff by herself. But I may just cry after she does something. No crying today. Perhaps seeing Oadis, did something. Even if I was hallucinating him. But why the fuck would I hallucinate a cat? I didn’t get scared.

I don’t really understand why I saw the cat, or why there was pressure on my stomach. I wasn’t any cat’s person, at least not as far as I know. Pretty sure he was my sister’s cat. But since Meiko might be here sometimes too, I wasn’t his person either. So I guess you don’t need to be the animal’s person for them to visit you.

They could have only been here because of love.

Oh and I think I knew Tonka was here, because I vaguely remember at some point saying something, Tonka’s name, and possibly I love her. Not sure when that was though. Also, don’t know how I automatically say stuff to her. I’m not intentionally doing it. It just happens. Perhaps that’s what happens when you get such a strong bond with anybody. The creature doesn’t have to be a dog, could even be another human. Love doesn’t care about the body.

I can also see other consciousnesses following Tonka here, like Buddy and Meiko, and possibly Oadis. He slept on the bed with the dogs and me, I think on my feet. For some reason he seemed to like the dogs.

Hard to believe everybody accessing this, is blocking Jetpack stats.

Also, according to MEGA, no bandwidth is being used.

Which means, I can safely cancel the hosting soon. No need to keep a site online, that is infested with bots. MEGA could be wrong, but who cares. I’ll just assume, this site is infested with bots. Just like all the other things I assume.

I’m sure there’s plenty of more interesting paranormal sites, that have something other then dust, and bugs, and monitors waking themselves up.

I may also just leave the site as is, and never put anything new on it. Or turn it into a porn site.

I don’t think MEGA uses bandwidth when I watch something myself. Still probably just bots access this site. So leave it as is, until the server can’t handle the bots anymore.

Monitor woke itself up two times, while watching TV. Didn’t notice it the first time it happened. Noticed eventually the second time.

I looked at the security camera, that’s the only reason I know it happened two times.

But I wonder if it’s software related, does the update thing wake the monitor up? If so, I should disable it.

But the Mac mini was getting woke up in the past too. Might switch over to that, to listen to music on my earbuds, so I can block all sound. Or use my phone, doesn’t really matter. Not like I need the phone’s battery to last, nobody calls or texts me.

The update thing said it got a 403 error or something. But around 40 minutes ago, don’t think that’s when it woke up, was before that. I’ll manually check for updates, since apparently that update thing is broken, or their site is. I use zypper to update, not that GUI thingy that is in the system tray in KDE. And the main repo might be down. Bummer.

It’s about control. Why else remove stuff from the bible? I doubt the bible was always homophobic. It’s mind boggling how people can believe God is homophobic.

Also, not sure the bible was intended to be religion. It may more be a history book, then religion.

Teaching people gay is bad, won’t accomplish universal light. A bunch of people will just be angry instead. The bible also says not to kill, but people don’t seem to believe or care about that. The death penalty is fine in America. An abortion? That ain’t fine.

As they said on the Netflix show, Inside Job, I think it’s called, in America there’s pro life and pro death at the same time people. How you can be both is mind boggling.