If what I vaguely remember happened. Right before I fell a sleep, I heard Tonka get on the bed, and I said “goodnight Tonka” and then “I love you Tonka”. Fell a sleep after that.

It wasn’t as automatic as some of the things I’ve said in bed. Still automatic, just not as automatic.

How did I know Tonka is who was getting on the bed? I think it was the beginning of the year, and all three dogs, and a cat visited me. I assume all three dogs were there. Probably obvious that Tonka is who was getting on the bed, it’s her bed, and her apartment, and we may have the strongest connection.

Oh and I also realized the other day, the reason deceased family interacts with me, is because I’d feel even worse if they didn’t. Somebody said they don’t usually interact with the living, as they don’t want to make grieving worse. Apparently, I feel worse with zero interaction. Since they can see the most likely outcome of what they want to do, they can see I’m probably going to feel worse, if they do nothing.

I think a psychic said that, probably the guy on Netflix. They should make more episodes of that show.

Still waiting for The Blackwell Ghost 8. When will it be released?

No idea why. The first time, was shortly after I went to bed. Or maybe right after I went to bed. I may not have been sleeping yet.

I did post something about I should ask my dad to wake something up. Perhaps that’s close enough to asking, to get somebody to do something.

In that case, I can confirm he’s waking it up.

Nothing wakes up for unknown reasons much anymore. I wasn’t expecting anything to be on the security camera. I did change the exposure, changing the brightness won’t completely fix it. I could probably keep the brightness at the default now. Apparently this camera, with a higher resolution, can’t auto expose as good as the other one. I just have it set to a day and night profile, turns to the night profile at 4:29 PM I think, until 10 AM.

But the exposure I changed it to, might be fine for all the time.

Good thing that worked, I don’t want to try finding IR lights to buy. I looked once, but the one I looked at, might be junk. Not even sure that would fix it anyways. If the exposure is wrong.

I might need a NVR, for some times, I have images, but no videos. Where’s the videos? Problem with NVR, is the one I want to use, probably requires the entire OS to be 64bit, and my Raspberry Pi only has a 64bit kernel, too lazy to reconfigure the entire thing. The Mac mini would be the best to use, but with FileVault on, nothing will auto load on rebooting. You have to manually login first, no auto logging in. Think that was on by default. I don’t intend on disabling it.

I finally asked Tonka, if she could go on the bed. Very quickly, after asking her, by speaking the words of course, I felt movement on the bed.

I figured out somehow, that all you have to do is ask, and she might go on the bed. Well, she probably told me. Or somebody else told me. That was a while ago, I just haven’t actually tried it yet. I think I automatically asked her to do it the first time, just like I automatically prayed to God asking to take good care of her. I can’t explain how that automatic stuff happens, at all. When I went to bed, I didn’t automatically do it. I think I may have woke up and automatically asked her to do it, when I figured out you just have to ask.

At some point, I need to ask my dad, to turn a screen on. If something turns on very quickly after asking, that basically confirms, he did it, and was the one most likely doing it in the past.

Good thing I’m already insane, so they won’t need to diagnose me with anything else, for believing what I believe.

I should also ask God, if they can do something about my depression. And if my depression is gone, or way less, the doctor won’t be able to explain it. Because doctors don’t believe in God apparently.

Republicans claim to believe in God though, so perhaps they will believe you?

She must be here a lot, well she also knows what I’m most likely going to do. So she may come here sometime before I do it. I think most spirits, are impatient.

Also, dogs love their person a ton, just like I love her a ton. I don’t think God or anybody else, intended for me to be destroyed when loved ones die though. That may be related to humans disconnect from their soul and God. Which also wasn’t intended to happen.

Luckily, the first episode recorded with The Secret of Skinwalker Ranch.

But watching it right after the original show, is too much all at once. You get tired, and wonder perhaps it’s all fake. Like the Arnold guy thinks of Heaven. He shouldn’t go to Skinwalker Ranch, or watch it. He may be upset.

I need Merging Dimensions: The Incredible Saga of the Bradshaw Ranch now, but I might have to buy it. Cheaper on Amazon for Kindle version, it’s $13 from Kobo. It’s three dollars cheaper on Amazon.

Perhaps you reincarnate to a different dimension, and come here every time you do bad. Don’t ask me how you get in heaven for eternity, perhaps by loving and believing in God.

Humans may not be individual consciousness, but they must be individuals, because we aren’t all moving the same, acting the same, or looking the same.

Or are we not supposed to be that way? In that case, which psychopath gets to be the one human? Well, that won’t go very well. They’ll decide by last man standing, but if none are standing, then no one human.

Now if you aren’t conscious, you won’t know you exist, or is that awareness? Can you be conscious without awareness?

Do one of their books explain what a shared consciousness is? Or did they not ask God that? I forgot who said that.

Well, I got some more books to put on my Kindle, thanks to the public domain download source. I probably won’t read them, I have too many books to read.

There was even a spot pushed down behind me, and I for sure thought Tonka was by me in bed.

So I’m going with Tonka was by me in bed, not my mind playing tricks on me.

The camera can’t see the spot. No idea if that’s why that spot was picked, or that’s just the spot she wanted. But I think I should turn the camera around, as there’s no real value in it pointing in my room anymore. Less stuff might happen with it pointing in there. If it was my mind playing tricks, I’d think I’d feel Tonka by me every night.

Use it to monitor the 3D printer if it ever works again. Need some way to mount it though. But that might kill the camera, if it’s inside the tent. Except, the printer itself can handle whatever the temperature is inside tent.

You can print a mount if you want a camera for it.

Yesterday, maybe around 5:30 PM, the monitor woke up for an unknown reason. I wasn’t home. I did get some notifications, but not sure what time. And when I looked at it, didn’t see anything. Scrypted isn’t great, if you are using the motion detection on an Amcrest camera, Scrypted only checks so often, so it doesn’t detect all motion.

And you apparently have to tell it to use the low quality stream for local streaming, if you want to change the stream for remote streaming. If I don’t do that, the video pauses. Doesn’t seem to do it on my own WiFi though. So perhaps Apple’s servers are crap. Well, it could be using them when on my own WiFi, not sure. I think my phone has complete access to the Apple TV. So is it going from the Apple TV to phone? I should temporally disable that firewall rule, and see if it’ll pause on my own WiFi then. Maybe then I can fix it, without having to use the lower quality stream.

The lower quality stream doesn’t need transcoding. It saves the motion detected videos to my computer using FTP, and I don’t want massive H264 files. Nor do I want to manually transcode them all, or make a script. I guess the Mac mini could do it, but it was expensive for what it is, and I don’t want to ever buy a new one. The CPU gets hot when transcoding, even with hardware acceleration. The GPU is on the CPU, don’t know what Apple Silicon Macs use for hardware transcoding. It uses Video Toolbox, that’s all I know. Maybe it’s just called a “hardware encoder”. Either way, the CPU gets hotter.

I did cry yesterday about my dead dad, and probably Tonka.

Monitor woke up for an unknown reason at 8:06 PM. I was in the other room making my bed, so I didn’t wake it up.

Tonka liked when the bedding was washed, she’d get on the bed afterwards. I washed the bedding at my mom’s. One blanket is still over there, but don’t need any blankets right now.

Good thing I used the fast setting for washing it. Or I’d only get one blanket done, or the sheets done.

They can think and say anything you can. So you might as well go in a padded room, and talk to yourself for the rest of your days.

Nobody can have a different idea, anybody can get the same idea.

And I think Earthfiles is only about animal mutilations now, probably not worth watching anymore. Perhaps the power brokers have secret tech, and are harvesting testicles and other body parts.

Now if you do something else while watching it, you’ll miss everything she says. But you might as well close it.

How does a shared consciousness work for Atheists?

Well, I assume God can take away, awareness, therefore it’ll be like not existing, and Atheists are right. You exist, you just don’t know it, as you aren’t aware of anything.

The beauty of living on a laboratory, animal mutilations. Do they mutilate people though? Probably. You just don’t find them.

But I don’t think God will take awareness away, or even free will. So no being a puppet without awareness. I think God sends you to Hell if they punish you. But I don’t know if they punish anybody much anymore. As that might be a lot of punishment. Especially if you believe what republicans believe.