Sex must have happened here.
That’s mostly what Portals To Hell is, talking about how they feel. Good luck proving they feel one way or another. But it’s back on if you want to watch it. The Blackwell Ghost is better.
Oh he proved it, by saying he feels the same as her. Sure.
Yet, there wasn’t really any room on that side. So maybe the other day, it didn’t feel like somebody was on me, just by me, but no room.
I ended up staying in bed till 11 AM. I didn’t want the feeling to go away. I like when dogs sleep by me. Buddy slept with his head on my foot every night. He actually required to be on my bed. I had to help him get on my bed when he got older. That’s because once he was potty trained, I asked him to get on my bed. Rather anybody else wanted him on my bed didn’t matter, I wanted a dog on my bed. That might have been a smaller bed too. Luckily, he was the only dog at the time. Would be hard to have three dogs on that bed.
But I ended up with three dogs on my bed, and a cat. Maybe four dogs, as I think Chibi got up there sometimes too.
Pretty sure if Bodhi came in my apartment, he’d jump on my bed. That’s the first thing Sofie did when she came to visit. But she probably smelled Tonka up there. She was like rubbing her head or something on my bed. She only had Sofie like two years, she was old when she got her. Her people should have kept her, or kept her in the family. It’s cruel getting rid of your old dog. Sofie and Tonka were the same smart. They got in my grandparent’s house, and went exactly where everybody was. They weren’t inside because of the pugs. The pugs had some issues with other dogs, if they didn’t, Sofie and Tonka probably would have been inside.
Somehow they knew exactly where everybody was inside. They walked directly to the room where everybody was.
I wish I took Tonka and Buddy on more walks. Both of them would have been super happy if they got more walks. Tonka wouldn’t have even required long walks, in fact, if you went too far, she’d probably just sit down. That’s why Buddy got out of the yard, he didn’t get enough exercise. Meiko would always go back and be in the yard, Tonka and Buddy would just be running together. Not running away, as we had no problem getting them. They were trying to tell us, they needed to run and/or go on more walks.
Good reason not to get a dog, I don’t like walking. I don’t have to exercise if I get no dog. Also, I don’t want another Ruby.
No room for anybody to be on the bed by my side, but it felt like somebody was actually on top of me on that side, while sleeping. Unless they were on the other side, then there’d be room.
Tonka does know I’d let her sleep on top of me. Something outside scared her once, and she laid on me sideways, and peed on me. I didn’t get mad at her, I just took a shower.
But it’s probably how I cope with the loss of her, by making it feel like somebody is by me in bed, or I guess on top of me, if there’s no room for them to be by me.
That was the first time it felt like somebody was actually on top of me though. I also slept until after 11 AM, cause I didn’t want the feeling to ever go away. Oh and I wanted to move to the dream world.
Good luck proving somebody was there or not. Not sure any camera would show anything. Do they make a thermal camera you can run for a long time and record the entire time? Maybe, but probably expensive. It probably wouldn’t capture anything anyways. It’s possible when in the spirit realm, you can send signals to the living. So you can’t prove I made it feel like it, or somebody else did. Seeing as humans aren’t aware of their own life essence, you aren’t going to prove anything that involves it.
Maybe the title should have been “Felt like somebody was on my side”.
Bummer. Will there ever be one?
On another note, the Hat Man might be an Alien. I saw something about the Hat Man when searching for Blackwell Ghost 6. The last episode of Ancient Aliens talked about shadow people. Somebody said they might be all different entities. That is not all are Aliens, or the same Aliens.
Not sure I believe that, as somebody said they saw a reptilian that was inside a cloak or something. Their cloak may have malfunctioned. The reptilians have a bad rap, so they could be evil.
Something said they were banished by God to live underground.
Speaking of God, if you evolve enough, can you do what we think of as God stuff? There could be a supreme being, but there could also be a ton of evolved beings. So who’s to say an Alien couldn’t create a heaven for humans? And not allow other Aliens to enter that dimension. Apparently there’s a dimension that humans can enter, but some Aliens can’t, and they can’t figure out why.
They might as well be a God. To a baby human, probably almost all Aliens are like a God.
Apparently our tech was way more advance then we currently are, before we got wiped out the third time. We probably became a danger to other species on different planets, and therefore wiped us out yet again. We might be allowed to kill ourselves, since apparently we won’t stop, but other species might not be allowed. You are basically in a death machine, if you are a human. Reincarnate and possibly get blown up again.
We punish ourselves, by killing each other. We will probably get wiped out a fourth time as well. Or wipe ourselves out.
I punish myself by being sad and missing my dead dog.
Maybe that’s just what happens if you make primates smarter.
Tonka may have proved to me more than once she still exists, yet I’m still miserable. I can believe God, and having a soul or life essence, and I’m still miserable.
Perhaps I’ve existed longer then this life, and can’t remember why I’m miserable. So maybe wiping our memory isn’t such a great idea.
All I did was go downstairs to get my laundry. But it recorded lots of balls of lights.
One recording, I assume the video compression, made what looks like a toilet on the wall, but keeps changing it. Maybe the camera lost it’s fucking mind too.
Damn, if this was an adult site, I could make adult videos for it. I’d have to put a warning on it. I can think of a better paranormal adult domain, but somebody probably already has it.
I’m too lazy to upload anything it recorded. Nothing much different then what’s on here. I don’t need to publish every video with balls of lights. The only thing different is the toilet video compression on the wall.
So what any time of the day, that it is dark enough for IR, it might record something? It seems to have recorded more in the small amount of time I was downstairs, then all of while sleeping.
I will publish another UFO like video and/or picture though. That is the most convincing it’s not a bug or dust. Hasn’t seemed to record anything like that again yet though. I’m too lazy to do a paranormal investigation.
Unless it’s a dirty paranormal investigation, then I’d have to publish it on my porn domain.
You should record a lot of balls of light every night, if it’s dust. Barely any balls of light were recorded early this morning. Since it has a sound trigger, it mostly recorded the heater while it was on. And some snoring.
So it looks like the dust theory is wrong.
I suppose some of them could be bugs, guess the bugs didn’t show themselves early this morning. The UFO, isn’t a bug though. I’d probably be dead, if that was a bug. They would have eaten my face off.
Could be spirits, or some of them. If so, they have the ability to be here or not, or show themselves or not.
If I knew any Aliens, I’d ask them what it is.
That reminds me, one day I woke up with my Watch on my pillow. Why the fuck would I take my own Watch off? I got a thought in my head, to check my watch. Somehow I knew the watch wasn’t even on. Or somebody sent that to me. But why? So I don’t squish the watch? If I was abducted, they sure didn’t want to wake me up. Now if a spirit took it off, the question is why?
Smart abducting me while sleeping. Too bad they don’t fix my IBS or anything else. Don’t think abductions are common in my family though.
So why did I take my watch off? And then somehow know I took it off, but no memory of taking it off. I really need a camera in there. But I’m cheap, and also, I’d kind of rather not know what happens in there. Nobody will believe anything except me anyways, so kind of a waste of money on the camera. Not to mention, I’d need a long Ethernet cable. WiFi isn’t great for security cameras, people can knock your stuff off WiFi. Maybe even hack into the camera and watch you sleep. No NFS share on WiFi either, it can’t connect to the VPN. The only way to do that, would be to connect it to a Pi or something by Ethernet, and have that connected to WiFi. Might as well get a long Ethernet cable.
Still not receiving emails for some reason. Might be a DNS thing. Except, I can email that address from Gmail. Might have to setup SMTP. As MXroute may be blocking it.
Doesn’t make sense that it’s blocked though. So maybe the server is sending it to itself, instead of MXroute. Good job DirectAdmin. My other site can send emails to an MXroute email.
Looks like it’s failing for some reason. Got to login to the webmail to see why. Nope, have to setup an admin email, to get the error emails. Because it’s trying to send something to an email that doesn’t exist on MXroute. I didn’t enter that email in the contact form.
So the over aggressive spam protection, is probably blocking it. Why the fuck do I have to setup SMTP to MXroute, to email myself on MXroute? Same thing happened to my other server, had to make an account just so it can send me emails.
Might be time to look for a new email provider.
Update
The contact form actually emails me now. The port for TLS isn’t open, so I used SSL instead. I could open the port, but why bother.
Not like I need the emails, you can see the contact form submissions in the admin interface.
My pillow was standing up and leaning on me. Probably did it in my sleep, cause I wanted a dog sleeping by me. No idea though. Probably won’t put a camera in there.
I could have been cold as well.
Why would there be very little balls of light being recorded, one night? I didn’t dust, so the same amount of dust is in there. The windows are always closed. The heater has been off for some time.
So no idea what it’s recording. No idea why you can only see it in IR either.
Barely recorded anything while sleeping last night/this morning. Just saw a fly fly by. Could have only been recording a fly while sleeping.
Woke up feeling like somebody was sleeping on my leg. Turns out my leg was on the other leg, I sleep on my side. The weird part is, I moved my leg, feeling went away, moved my leg back, and the feeling wasn’t like before, wasn’t as strong or something.
There was also some heat down there too.
Why would a spirit, lay on the leg that is under your other leg? I suppose they could do that.
I figured Tonka was sleeping on my leg, she knows I’d let her. Buddy knows as well, he slept with his head on my foot.
Might have just been hallucinating again. Apparently that’s how I cope with the death of my dog. Maybe next time that happens, I just won’t move or get out of bed.
Do I sleep with my leg on my other leg every night? Probably, since I sleep on my side. So I don’t feel what I felt today everyday.
On another note, the monitor didn’t turn on while sleeping this morning.