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I was in bed, missing Tonka, and I think another dog. I then felt somebody by me in bed on one side, then somebody else on the other side. Not sure if I felt two bodies by me at the same time, or they moved to the other side.

Also, can’t recall who else I was missing. Probably one of the other dogs I grew up with. Don’t know if I cried in bed or not, or was just missing dogs.

Well, the crying doesn’t ever stop, as when I woke up, I was crying in the bathroom. It doesn’t matter how many years it’s been since she died.

Do some people experience nothing after somebody they love dies? It’s hard to believe that would happen. If so, there’s probably a ton of variables involved as to why not. Could simply be whoever died, doesn’t want to do anything. Well, Heaven, is supposed to be so good, you never want to leave.

If you are praying for somebody who died, that creature will hear all your prayers. I assume that isn’t just people, but dogs will know too. They might get it all at once as well. Because time doesn’t exist there.

Believe what you will, free will allows you to. I still think having no free will to not believe in God would be better, so be a dog. Or do they have free will to believe or not God? It’s possible they just simply know about God. As far as I know, all dogs go to Heaven. Humans that’s debatable. Doesn’t mean you go to Hell, there’s also reincarnation. And proof for it. Simply not living as long as God wanted you to live, could result in reincarnation.

Hauntings sounds like a bad thing. Perhaps you should say love never ends.

The monitor finally got turned on for unknown reasons, I wasn’t even by it.

Perhaps those who I can’t see doing less, will accomplish more somehow. Too much interaction could backfire.

Believe what you will, I prefer to believe somebody I can’t see is waking the monitor up. I already know love doesn’t end when your body dies. Love wouldn’t exist without God.

The Blackwell Ghost guy already proved love exists forever. I doubt he’s making fake videos. He gets too scared for it to be fake, like sleeping in his car. And how do you explain that email that got sent that he didn’t do? Look at the time it was sent, and if he was sleeping, well there you go. Look at his history to see if he setup an automated email. Or just believe him, because he probably has no good reason to make it up. Once you watch the later ones, you’ll see something horrible happened to him. Well, to his entire family.

Thanks to free will, you can believe whatever the fuck you want. You can believe you are a robot. With no feelings, and no love.

Maybe my computer has malware, as it’s faster right now. Or maybe the Firefox extensions got updated, and made it faster. Or maybe I’m just going insane.

Wanted to remove the video plugin I had. On shared hosting now, so that plugin isn’t being used for new videos. You aren’t going to encode videos on shared hosting, at least not the shared hosting I have.

Also, the latest update to the plugin, causes issues with clearing the database in LiteSpeed Cache. It still does it, but also says there’s a problem with your site. Probably a security risk keeping it as well.

Felt like at least two creatures by me in bed this morning. One on each side of me.

Well, the first thing I noticed, was I woke up early, and felt pressure on my stomach, like somebody was by my stomach. Not sure if I was dreaming, or hallucinating, but saw a cat that looked like Oadis. I saw him on my actual bed. But not sure my actual bed, or just in my mind. That feeling wasn’t there when I woke up.

I may have been having issues breathing because of the pressure on my stomach, but I ain’t telling a cat or any animal with or without a body, to not lay by me.

I may have done a petting motion where I thought they were laying. Hard to remember, I know I thought about doing so. I’m pretty sure I was wide awake, so no idea why it’s hard to remember.

After that, I didn’t feel anybody by my stomach anymore, lower down.

If only two creatures, perhaps Buddy and Tonka. But I might have felt somebody by my back, not right by me though. Three creatures, is obviously all three of the dogs I grew up with, Buddy, Meiko, and Tonka.

If all three dogs were here last night, Tonka was probably the one not right by me.

It is Tonka’s bed, so she can go on it whenever she wants. Anybody can go on her bed, if she wants them on it. Maybe an elephant will visit me. Not sure how they’ll fit, I guess by not being in a body. It might be dead obvious if an elephant is on my bed while sleeping.

Remember, love never ends, it’s forever.

And the pressure on my stomach, may have been a message. Such as something wrong with me. Somebody’s living I think dog told them about something by pushing their head on their stomach or something.

I thought something may happen, I washed my bedding yesterday. And when I woke up too early, I then was thinking stuff happens in there all the time, I’m just not aware of it.

Sorry, no camera goes in my bedroom. I don’t want anything to stop happening, and I don’t want to watch myself sleep. Some people like being haunted. I consider everything they do as love. I suppose you could get a negative haunting. But I have complete faith in God, and the divine, that they will protect me.

Oh and I woke up actually somewhat happy today. But why did it take more then one creature to get the message of love across? I’m pretty sure Tonka has done stuff by herself. But I may just cry after she does something. No crying today. Perhaps seeing Oadis, did something. Even if I was hallucinating him. But why the fuck would I hallucinate a cat? I didn’t get scared.

I don’t really understand why I saw the cat, or why there was pressure on my stomach. I wasn’t any cat’s person, at least not as far as I know. Pretty sure he was my sister’s cat. But since Meiko might be here sometimes too, I wasn’t his person either. So I guess you don’t need to be the animal’s person for them to visit you.

They could have only been here because of love.

Oh and I think I knew Tonka was here, because I vaguely remember at some point saying something, Tonka’s name, and possibly I love her. Not sure when that was though. Also, don’t know how I automatically say stuff to her. I’m not intentionally doing it. It just happens. Perhaps that’s what happens when you get such a strong bond with anybody. The creature doesn’t have to be a dog, could even be another human. Love doesn’t care about the body.

I can also see other consciousnesses following Tonka here, like Buddy and Meiko, and possibly Oadis. He slept on the bed with the dogs and me, I think on my feet. For some reason he seemed to like the dogs.

Hard to believe everybody accessing this, is blocking Jetpack stats.

Also, according to MEGA, no bandwidth is being used.

Which means, I can safely cancel the hosting soon. No need to keep a site online, that is infested with bots. MEGA could be wrong, but who cares. I’ll just assume, this site is infested with bots. Just like all the other things I assume.

I’m sure there’s plenty of more interesting paranormal sites, that have something other then dust, and bugs, and monitors waking themselves up.

I may also just leave the site as is, and never put anything new on it. Or turn it into a porn site.

I don’t think MEGA uses bandwidth when I watch something myself. Still probably just bots access this site. So leave it as is, until the server can’t handle the bots anymore.

Monitor woke itself up two times, while watching TV. Didn’t notice it the first time it happened. Noticed eventually the second time.

I looked at the security camera, that’s the only reason I know it happened two times.

But I wonder if it’s software related, does the update thing wake the monitor up? If so, I should disable it.

But the Mac mini was getting woke up in the past too. Might switch over to that, to listen to music on my earbuds, so I can block all sound. Or use my phone, doesn’t really matter. Not like I need the phone’s battery to last, nobody calls or texts me.

The update thing said it got a 403 error or something. But around 40 minutes ago, don’t think that’s when it woke up, was before that. I’ll manually check for updates, since apparently that update thing is broken, or their site is. I use zypper to update, not that GUI thingy that is in the system tray in KDE. And the main repo might be down. Bummer.

It’s about control. Why else remove stuff from the bible? I doubt the bible was always homophobic. It’s mind boggling how people can believe God is homophobic.

Also, not sure the bible was intended to be religion. It may more be a history book, then religion.

Teaching people gay is bad, won’t accomplish universal light. A bunch of people will just be angry instead. The bible also says not to kill, but people don’t seem to believe or care about that. The death penalty is fine in America. An abortion? That ain’t fine.

As they said on the Netflix show, Inside Job, I think it’s called, in America there’s pro life and pro death at the same time people. How you can be both is mind boggling.

The entire point of everything is love.

If what I vaguely remember, actually happened, I think I was fully awake, but then eventually fell a sleep. Apparently my memory is so bad, it’s now vaguely remembered.

I was laying in bed, and felt something through my body, love perhaps and/or heat. Then it felt like somebody was on my foot. I think I said “I love you Tonka”, I don’t recall anything else I said. But that’s what Buddy did, he slept with his head on my foot. I didn’t really think when or before saying “I love you Tonka”. Just came out, just like praying once asking God to take good care of Tonka.

It’s possible they are interacting with my soul directly, and I’m not aware of what’s happening. Thanks to the dumb and blind programming in humanity’s consciousness.

Are these events just about love? Or also preparing me for something? Or perhaps they are trying to make me feel better, as feeling numb isn’t great. I don’t even know how to make myself feel better. Doctor didn’t seem to care.

I won’t tell my mom about that, she isn’t interested in God, souls, love or anything that I am. That’s why she gets mad when I try to talk to her.

If you believe all the stuff I do, or are open to anything, then stuff like this can happen. If you are narrow minded, well it must be boring.

I think I was sleeping before that happened. I just woke up and then not long after that happened.

I only watched around 30 minute, no subtitles, means you can barely hear them. I don’t want to turn the volume up and down the entire time it’s on.

The quality doesn’t look very good either, it says 2019 for when it was released. I doubt 1080p looked that bad from then. Some are Skype interviews, but I think the stuff recorded with a camera doesn’t look great either.

They might all be full of shit as well.

I can see why it has bad reviews.

I suppose the version I have, could be highly compressed. Not sure less compression would solve the problem. And different audio levels throughout the entire movie, is annoying.

Like they used the onboard microphone instead of an actual microphone. Probably didn’t use a light either. I could take better video with my iPhone. You’d think they’d make the audio level consistent throughout the entire video.

Did they use a point and shoot camera? Or maybe something even worse, like a VHS tape camcorder. But it claims to be 1080p.

It’s on Prime Video, I think. Or get it from the open source site.

But it may answer some questions about why some people reincarnate. My theory about not being ready, could be one reason. But the ultimate reason, is because God said so.

And if you believe their stories, love is all that matters, I already believed that. Oh and Hell might be real too, which is a bummer. Now I might be worrying about that for the rest of my life. As I might be massively screwed. But maybe not, it seems like some good force is protecting me for some reason.

If you watch The Sleepless Unrest, scary stuff happens on it. The hauntings I experience, aren’t really scary. The main thing, is the monitor wakes up, or it feels like somebody is by me in bed.

So maybe I’m not screwed, and I’m being sent love no matter what.

But I should learn to love, not just dogs, but people too. At least God won’t be as disappointed in me, if I figure love out better.

Oh and God can make themselves look like anything, I think they usually look like light. At least that’s what I think God is, pure love and light. No gender. They can make themselves appear male or female.

Oh and the point of humans being created was for universal love. So perhaps we reincarnate, until all believe in God.

I forgot all about Earthfiles today. But I’m not sure I want to know anymore about Aliens.

Oh and everybody was given free will, even to not believe in God, or to like God. I still think me having no free will would be better. And some of the stuff on that, is confusing as fuck.

I believe them, cause I couldn’t make any of that up, if I tried.

Oh and God confirmed Aliens exist sort of, there’s multiple dimensions. Heaven is in a different dimension, that’s where Tonka is. But apparently they can come here if they want to. Makes sense, if the point is love.

One person was an Atheist. Not anymore.

Oh and I think I know why I believe God, when I was in the nut factory, I said if I don’t get out, God doesn’t exist. It took three months, but I got out.

They talk about living other lives, but they don’t elaborate much. I’m guessing you never recall any of those lives. You might even forget this life. Well, they said the only thing that goes on is love. So if it’s a bad memory, it ceases to exist. God will remember, but I doubt they’ll tell you about it.

Would suck if I lived a past life, and did even worse. Perhaps you are supposed to be like a dog, and not live in the past or future.

I automatically prayed to God to ask them to take care of Tonka, perhaps good care. You don’t really need to do that, God will regardless. But I guess, God is aware, and Tonka is aware of it.

They mentioned prayers, God is listening, and if somebody dies, they will hear them, rather they want to or not.

I wasn’t scared about dying before I watched that, I was when I was a kid though. Now, I’m just worried about Hell.

How does my mom give so much love, but has depression?

Oh and there’s no English subtitles for it, at least not when the subtitle site was online, and I looked on my computer. Then the site went down, tried looking in the app on the Apple TV. One lady has a strong ascent, so really hard to understand her.

Oh and apparently depression and other things are darkness. So I might be very screwed. Darkness might be bad. Probably is bad.

Perhaps I shouldn’t watch shows like this. But shouldn’t I worry about Hell? Perhaps everybody should, then maybe we won’t be horrible to each other.

And for the subtitles, I forgot you can translate it with crow-translate. But I still have the wrong video file. So perhaps search that site for subtitles, before downloading anything. Then download the file with subtitles on that site, perhaps the file itself will have English subtitles as well. If not, translate it with crow-translate.