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Think it was three days. Finally woke itself up today. When I wasn’t home. I did get a notification though.

Now the question is, who is waking it up? Seems odd for a software thing, as you’d think it would wake up everyday in that case. I could turn it off, but then I won’t have my uptime, I think it’s over 40 days.

Oh and that “software” problem effects, the Linux distro on my desktop, and my Mac mini running macOS. How did they all obtain the same software problem? Well, perhaps the Deck and Linux desktop. But doubtful the Mac mini shares the same code.

My old iPad may have gotten woke up too once. Not sure if it was because of a reminder or not. My phone has possibly got woken up too, without any reminder or anything.

Would be funny if I turned the Steam Deck off, and it got turned on. That would pretty much confirm, that it isn’t the software. Unless it isn’t 100% off.

I personally don’t believe love would exist without God. Nor that humans would still exist. Or ever exist in the first place. Evolution would take too long by itself, if it even is a thing. That doesn’t mean God modified us.

What would the point of love existing, if you just die and cease to exist? And how do you get many dimensions and many life forms without God? And if it’s a shared consciousness, how does that work without God?

If in desktop mode, just close Steam. My Linux PC would wake up because of Steam as well. Or that’s if the monitor wakes up. If you are talking about suspending, that is a different problem. And it probably wakes up to download stuff.

But Linux PC still wakes up, just not as much. Not because of Steam anymore.

And the Deck still has good timing at waking up.

The one device waking up, that might be unexplainable, is the Mac mini. Mouse moving won’t wake it up. That is the monitor, the only thing suspending is the Steam Deck most likely.

And I’m going with the Deck is waking up for multiple reasons, as the timing is too good to be the software. Or did they make the Deck aware?

The people searching for why the Steam Deck wakes itself up, don’t put in their search term how often or anything else. And if it’s software, shouldn’t it happen everyday? And how can random have good timing on waking itself up? Not really random in that case.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to continue going nuts. Soon the camera will see more into my room, it’s going on the table, after I get a Orange Pi Zero 2. What I do or don’t do in bed, is more interesting then the door anyways. I should change the brightness on the other camera though, in case somebody breaks in when it’s dark. Might be a little hard to see who it is with the current brightness in IR mode. If I ever get a 3D printer, I might be able to control it with the Orange Pi Zero 2, and I don’t want to buy two. The 3D printer would go on the table. The camera has WiFi, but no VPN capabilities. So plug it into a Pi of some kind, after sharing the connection with it. WireGuard will probably be fine on it, the server is running on a Raspberry Pi 4 that has a super slow CPU. Just make sure the camera is only accessible from the Pi itself and the VPN. The WiFi clients shouldn’t be able to connect to it. It’ll need a firewall, for paranoia. Not running an Ethernet cable there, because it’ll be on the floor, and I’ll trip on it. Now you could staple it above the door frame. That might be cheaper then an Orange Pi Zero 2, but won’t solve controlling the 3D printer. Unless the 3D printer has Ethernet, don’t think the one on my wish list does.

The more Pis the better.

Oh and you can just turn your Steam Deck off, if it turns itself on, you must have a buggy power button. There’s always an explanation for some people. So remove the power button, if it still wakes up, I guess take a hammer to it. And if it fixes itself and turns on again, go to the nut house.

But my Steam Deck has been on for over 40 days I think, that’s some good uptime, thanks Valve for not releasing security updates for the OS, or at least not very often. Oh I forgot, the NSA could be waking it up too. I didn’t bother checking for any OS updates earlier. Game mode is clunky on a monitor with a keyboard and mouse. Can you do it from desktop mode? No idea. It’s always in it’s dock, still waiting for Just Cause 3 to work, last time I looked, it said it works on the Steam Deck, not on mine. So I’ll keep it idle, until they make it work, possibly never.

Update

Didn’t wake itself up today. If it doesn’t wake the monitor up by itself everyday, good luck figuring out why. Steam should be open still. If it logged every time it wakes up perhaps you could. If it says what woke it up. I touched the screen to make sure it still works and is on. It does and is. Maybe look at Steam’s scheduled downloads and record the time and see if the screen wakes up at that time. A log would be better. Didn’t look very hard for one though. Perhaps you can enable such a log.

While looking at photos from security camera, I noticed the Steam Deck woke up when I was gone. And then the Steam Deck woke up again.

The Steam Deck can see what I’m doing? Apparently. That may be the first time it woke up at 7:58 PM though. I think that was the time.

I should probably update it at some point, well probably not an OS update available, but game updates, and a Steam client update. There’s never an OS update available when I check, not even sure why I check. I’m not sure if Just Cause 3 not working is Proton or the OS, it works on my Linux PC. Or it did last time I tried. Using a crack doesn’t make the game work either.

Takes Valve ages to fix anything, and if they still claim Just Cause 3 works on the Steam Deck, they are lying, it might work for some people, but not everybody. I have no idea why it works for some people.

Maybe I should try loading it disconnected from the internet. Probably already tried that though. I may have tried on somebody else’s WiFi. And they don’t have AdGuard Home, so nothing should be blocked by DNS. Or maybe I changed the DNS server on the Deck. But that’s probably not the problem, if it works on my Linux PC.

If the camera was in my room, you’d be able to tell if I made it pushed down, or somebody you can’t see did.

But the camera is on my desk, and can only see so much in the bedroom. And because of how far away it is, the quality is really bad. Doesn’t exactly look like I did it, but hard to tell.

Sorry, no camera going in my room. I thought somebody may have been on the bed though. No point in sharing the video, the quality sucks. Too blocky to tell who’s doing it.

Remember, love is forever. Feeling depressed, perhaps isn’t forever.

Oh and the Steam Deck woke itself up around 9 AM.

On the other camera, I changed a setting, but now it’s too dark when it’s in IR mode. I had it set to schedule for the profile, but changed it to one profile all the time, but changes to IR mode. It doesn’t need to go into the night profile what it was set to anymore, it stays lighter longer now.

And even if I did it, somebody could be controlling me in my sleep to do it using me. Like when somebody talked through me, to tell me to calm down, it wasn’t my voice. That was kind of funny, my dream was making me super anxious or something, and somebody said the name my family calls me, and to calm down, I immediately calmed down as well. I’d reckon, I wouldn’t have calmed down, if I told myself to.

And I need to read the S.T.O.P Obsessing book, it may or may not help, but worth a shot. I think that’s why it ended up on the bed a long time ago, they knew it was going to get way worse. They knew way before I did. I’ll probably read it on the Kindle though, that way I don’t have to find a piece of paper to use as a bookmark. And I bought the Kindle version as well. That is the main book I need to read. The other books, about Aliens or whatever, aren’t as important.

Update
We moved my bed, so you can see even less now. It isn’t on the wall that is shared with my neighbor anymore.

Update
Looked at the video again, probably me rolling over. So I guess sometimes when I rollover, the blanket gets pushed down, and my brain associates that with a creature being there. That doesn’t explain the Steam Deck’s good timing on waking itself up though. Like right when I get out of the bathroom, or right when I’m leaving. And those “coincidences” have happened more then once.

If the “Reptilians” exist, they might as well, and they have slaves on one or more planets, they could control them, by making your soul not awake or aware of anything. All they are using it for is to power the body.

There’s a story of a guy waking up in a different body, but apparently wasn’t supposed to be awake, or aware. And the Reptilians were behind it.

If you can have God, why can’t you have Reptilians? There’s already evidence, we aren’t from this planet. Blood rain had cells in it, like nothing else on this planet, and there was a meteorite nearby. Don’t think it was the entire meteorite, just part of it, it blew up.

Some people make no sense, they can believe God exists, but nothing else. The universe would be tiny if that was the case. Not to mention, we’d be long extinct if nothing else existed. Either by ourselves, or God. And then they’d make a new life, that isn’t as violent as us.

Now that isn’t possible if you are an Atheist. I guess in that case, you think food is powering your body. It’s keeping the body alive. But the body probably does nothing, without the soul.

Is that software related? No idea.

What’s significant with 11:08? No idea, but I think the first time I noticed it waking up at the same time. Is something going to happen at 11:08 AM or PM? Maybe it was waking up at the same times before, but too often, so didn’t pay attention.

Only woke up two times today, as far as I know.

Or maybe it’s telling me to go to bed, which is what I’m about to do. That game is bad to play before bed, up after 12 AM yesterday because of it. Or I guess today, since it’s not tomorrow yet.

If something happens at 11:08, well, the Steam Deck can tell the future. No idea what day or what would happen though.

Probably anybody can look into the future, most humans think they can’t though, and that it isn’t possible. There’s a good psychic documentary, can’t recall what it’s called. But it turns out everybody is probably psychic.

Update

First time waking up today was 3 pm. Beginning to think it’s a weird software thing. But you can’t predict it. Maybe if I close Steam it won’t do it anymore. It’s in desktop mode. I think Steam has caused my desktop in the past to wake itself up, so I don’t leave it open on it anymore.

Update

Well it turned on again when getting ready to leave. Coincidence or not? I’m going with not. And if my neighbors can hear me, they might think I’m nuts. Oh well. I said goodbye whoever is here. Also I say goodnight most nights. Goodnight means everybody. And I’m pretty sure everybody that knows me is hearing that. All the animals and my dad. Great grandparents probably hear it too.

I am nuts though. So it doesn’t matter if people think that.

And “coincidences” like that have happened more then once. So I doubt it’s a coincidence anymore.

And you might ask “why don’t they do more?” there’s lots of reasons. They don’t want to scare me. I don’t ask. And if I don’t know how I will react who does? God and the divine might have a good idea and may even tell them. So I’m guessing I would have bad reactions.

Not to mention I heard knocking once and got kind of mad. No idea if somebody in the building was messing with me or what. I was mad because I thought a neighbor did it.

So anything with noise they probably won’t do.

They can appear as anything, including no gender. God is unconditional love, not a human, nor a gender.

Not sure I’m reading any of those books, as they say God is a he. That’s like saying male is a superior gender. But clearly it isn’t, as that’s most likely the reason humans are going extinct.

You really think humans would be as horrible if women ran things? Well, women that are Trump supporters would be just as bad.

You can get free books on Archive.org. I should say “borrow”.

On Skinwalker Ranch. Didn’t watch those episodes yet. They should let you watch them all at once.

Perhaps there really are power brokers. They don’t want the truth to be found, even though the guy bought the property. If a UFO is on the property he owns, what’s the problem with finding and revealing it to the world?

The Earthfiles lady says reality is classified. Not a great way to live.

All I started doing was saying “Good night Tonka out loud”. But I think I’m going to change it to dogs or puppies, or puppy dogs. So all the dogs are included, perhaps add cats too.

If my mind is making it feel like creatures are by me, I may have figured out how to feel that everyday.

No idea if it’s my mind or somebody is actually there. Today, I think I thought two creatures were by me.

You’d think if it was my mind, I would feel somebody by me everyday without doing anything. Or maybe I do, I just don’t remember.

Dogs should sleep on beds with their human(s).

It’s been days I think since it woke itself up. No idea why it’s waking up. I prefer to think somebody I can’t see is waking it up.

I woke up depressed today, and possibly was crying in my sleep, I was in the dream. About the dead animals, and my dead dad.

No relationship with my dad, and him being dead, affected me. My mom may hate him, but he’s my dad. And when you die, you are aware of things you weren’t before, or at least a lot of people are. If God wants you to see what your actions caused, God will do so. Since God is love, if you’ve messed up at all, expect God to show you what it caused.

Apparently some people want both of their parents.

And how can you hate anybody? Almost everybody screws up. Screwed up more? You can let God decide if anybody screwed up more.