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There was even a spot pushed down behind me, and I for sure thought Tonka was by me in bed.

So I’m going with Tonka was by me in bed, not my mind playing tricks on me.

The camera can’t see the spot. No idea if that’s why that spot was picked, or that’s just the spot she wanted. But I think I should turn the camera around, as there’s no real value in it pointing in my room anymore. Less stuff might happen with it pointing in there. If it was my mind playing tricks, I’d think I’d feel Tonka by me every night.

Use it to monitor the 3D printer if it ever works again. Need some way to mount it though. But that might kill the camera, if it’s inside the tent. Except, the printer itself can handle whatever the temperature is inside tent.

You can print a mount if you want a camera for it.

Yesterday, maybe around 5:30 PM, the monitor woke up for an unknown reason. I wasn’t home. I did get some notifications, but not sure what time. And when I looked at it, didn’t see anything. Scrypted isn’t great, if you are using the motion detection on an Amcrest camera, Scrypted only checks so often, so it doesn’t detect all motion.

And you apparently have to tell it to use the low quality stream for local streaming, if you want to change the stream for remote streaming. If I don’t do that, the video pauses. Doesn’t seem to do it on my own WiFi though. So perhaps Apple’s servers are crap. Well, it could be using them when on my own WiFi, not sure. I think my phone has complete access to the Apple TV. So is it going from the Apple TV to phone? I should temporally disable that firewall rule, and see if it’ll pause on my own WiFi then. Maybe then I can fix it, without having to use the lower quality stream.

The lower quality stream doesn’t need transcoding. It saves the motion detected videos to my computer using FTP, and I don’t want massive H264 files. Nor do I want to manually transcode them all, or make a script. I guess the Mac mini could do it, but it was expensive for what it is, and I don’t want to ever buy a new one. The CPU gets hot when transcoding, even with hardware acceleration. The GPU is on the CPU, don’t know what Apple Silicon Macs use for hardware transcoding. It uses Video Toolbox, that’s all I know. Maybe it’s just called a “hardware encoder”. Either way, the CPU gets hotter.

I did cry yesterday about my dead dad, and probably Tonka.

Monitor woke up for an unknown reason at 8:06 PM. I was in the other room making my bed, so I didn’t wake it up.

Tonka liked when the bedding was washed, she’d get on the bed afterwards. I washed the bedding at my mom’s. One blanket is still over there, but don’t need any blankets right now.

Good thing I used the fast setting for washing it. Or I’d only get one blanket done, or the sheets done.

They can think and say anything you can. So you might as well go in a padded room, and talk to yourself for the rest of your days.

Nobody can have a different idea, anybody can get the same idea.

And I think Earthfiles is only about animal mutilations now, probably not worth watching anymore. Perhaps the power brokers have secret tech, and are harvesting testicles and other body parts.

Now if you do something else while watching it, you’ll miss everything she says. But you might as well close it.

How does a shared consciousness work for Atheists?

Well, I assume God can take away, awareness, therefore it’ll be like not existing, and Atheists are right. You exist, you just don’t know it, as you aren’t aware of anything.

The beauty of living on a laboratory, animal mutilations. Do they mutilate people though? Probably. You just don’t find them.

But I don’t think God will take awareness away, or even free will. So no being a puppet without awareness. I think God sends you to Hell if they punish you. But I don’t know if they punish anybody much anymore. As that might be a lot of punishment. Especially if you believe what republicans believe.

The video they showed of it, or the frame, that looked blue to me. Is my TV broken? Or is their camera broken?

Or the internet stream is broken.

Going to check video on my computer, and then use the picker tool to see what color it is. Still looks blue. And the monitor may have better picture quality then TV. Bigger isn’t better, for screens.

Maybe the glow around it is purple.

According to color picker tool in GIMP, it’s #0000f4. Which is 95.7 blue.

Or just that the military is interested and has no comment when an attorney general of a state asks them about the surveillance they are doing on the ranch?

Does the military have the power to do that in a state? If not, that gives credibility to the UFO/Alien cover up. Also, Roswell makes it obvious, the military knows what a weather balloon is, they don’t mistake a flying saucer for a balloon.

Aliens existing won’t change my beliefs, I already believe “Aliens” as we call them, exist. A massive empty universe makes zero sense.

Almost leaving my body, is enough for me to believe you aren’t just a body. Not to mention, Tonka visiting me. And others visiting me as well.

If Hell is under the Earth, how come we can’t see it? Under as in the planet, or underground? Different dimension?

Atheists apparently stay here. So you don’t go to Hell if an Atheist? If so, perhaps everybody should be an Atheist. At least if what religion says is a sin. But I doubt God wants to send an entire race to Hell. Don’t forget reincarnation.

Think it was three days. Finally woke itself up today. When I wasn’t home. I did get a notification though.

Now the question is, who is waking it up? Seems odd for a software thing, as you’d think it would wake up everyday in that case. I could turn it off, but then I won’t have my uptime, I think it’s over 40 days.

Oh and that “software” problem effects, the Linux distro on my desktop, and my Mac mini running macOS. How did they all obtain the same software problem? Well, perhaps the Deck and Linux desktop. But doubtful the Mac mini shares the same code.

My old iPad may have gotten woke up too once. Not sure if it was because of a reminder or not. My phone has possibly got woken up too, without any reminder or anything.

Would be funny if I turned the Steam Deck off, and it got turned on. That would pretty much confirm, that it isn’t the software. Unless it isn’t 100% off.

I personally don’t believe love would exist without God. Nor that humans would still exist. Or ever exist in the first place. Evolution would take too long by itself, if it even is a thing. That doesn’t mean God modified us.

What would the point of love existing, if you just die and cease to exist? And how do you get many dimensions and many life forms without God? And if it’s a shared consciousness, how does that work without God?

If in desktop mode, just close Steam. My Linux PC would wake up because of Steam as well. Or that’s if the monitor wakes up. If you are talking about suspending, that is a different problem. And it probably wakes up to download stuff.

But Linux PC still wakes up, just not as much. Not because of Steam anymore.

And the Deck still has good timing at waking up.

The one device waking up, that might be unexplainable, is the Mac mini. Mouse moving won’t wake it up. That is the monitor, the only thing suspending is the Steam Deck most likely.

And I’m going with the Deck is waking up for multiple reasons, as the timing is too good to be the software. Or did they make the Deck aware?

The people searching for why the Steam Deck wakes itself up, don’t put in their search term how often or anything else. And if it’s software, shouldn’t it happen everyday? And how can random have good timing on waking itself up? Not really random in that case.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to continue going nuts. Soon the camera will see more into my room, it’s going on the table, after I get a Orange Pi Zero 2. What I do or don’t do in bed, is more interesting then the door anyways. I should change the brightness on the other camera though, in case somebody breaks in when it’s dark. Might be a little hard to see who it is with the current brightness in IR mode. If I ever get a 3D printer, I might be able to control it with the Orange Pi Zero 2, and I don’t want to buy two. The 3D printer would go on the table. The camera has WiFi, but no VPN capabilities. So plug it into a Pi of some kind, after sharing the connection with it. WireGuard will probably be fine on it, the server is running on a Raspberry Pi 4 that has a super slow CPU. Just make sure the camera is only accessible from the Pi itself and the VPN. The WiFi clients shouldn’t be able to connect to it. It’ll need a firewall, for paranoia. Not running an Ethernet cable there, because it’ll be on the floor, and I’ll trip on it. Now you could staple it above the door frame. That might be cheaper then an Orange Pi Zero 2, but won’t solve controlling the 3D printer. Unless the 3D printer has Ethernet, don’t think the one on my wish list does.

The more Pis the better.

Oh and you can just turn your Steam Deck off, if it turns itself on, you must have a buggy power button. There’s always an explanation for some people. So remove the power button, if it still wakes up, I guess take a hammer to it. And if it fixes itself and turns on again, go to the nut house.

But my Steam Deck has been on for over 40 days I think, that’s some good uptime, thanks Valve for not releasing security updates for the OS, or at least not very often. Oh I forgot, the NSA could be waking it up too. I didn’t bother checking for any OS updates earlier. Game mode is clunky on a monitor with a keyboard and mouse. Can you do it from desktop mode? No idea. It’s always in it’s dock, still waiting for Just Cause 3 to work, last time I looked, it said it works on the Steam Deck, not on mine. So I’ll keep it idle, until they make it work, possibly never.

Update

Didn’t wake itself up today. If it doesn’t wake the monitor up by itself everyday, good luck figuring out why. Steam should be open still. If it logged every time it wakes up perhaps you could. If it says what woke it up. I touched the screen to make sure it still works and is on. It does and is. Maybe look at Steam’s scheduled downloads and record the time and see if the screen wakes up at that time. A log would be better. Didn’t look very hard for one though. Perhaps you can enable such a log.

While looking at photos from security camera, I noticed the Steam Deck woke up when I was gone. And then the Steam Deck woke up again.

The Steam Deck can see what I’m doing? Apparently. That may be the first time it woke up at 7:58 PM though. I think that was the time.

I should probably update it at some point, well probably not an OS update available, but game updates, and a Steam client update. There’s never an OS update available when I check, not even sure why I check. I’m not sure if Just Cause 3 not working is Proton or the OS, it works on my Linux PC. Or it did last time I tried. Using a crack doesn’t make the game work either.

Takes Valve ages to fix anything, and if they still claim Just Cause 3 works on the Steam Deck, they are lying, it might work for some people, but not everybody. I have no idea why it works for some people.

Maybe I should try loading it disconnected from the internet. Probably already tried that though. I may have tried on somebody else’s WiFi. And they don’t have AdGuard Home, so nothing should be blocked by DNS. Or maybe I changed the DNS server on the Deck. But that’s probably not the problem, if it works on my Linux PC.

If the camera was in my room, you’d be able to tell if I made it pushed down, or somebody you can’t see did.

But the camera is on my desk, and can only see so much in the bedroom. And because of how far away it is, the quality is really bad. Doesn’t exactly look like I did it, but hard to tell.

Sorry, no camera going in my room. I thought somebody may have been on the bed though. No point in sharing the video, the quality sucks. Too blocky to tell who’s doing it.

Remember, love is forever. Feeling depressed, perhaps isn’t forever.

Oh and the Steam Deck woke itself up around 9 AM.

On the other camera, I changed a setting, but now it’s too dark when it’s in IR mode. I had it set to schedule for the profile, but changed it to one profile all the time, but changes to IR mode. It doesn’t need to go into the night profile what it was set to anymore, it stays lighter longer now.

And even if I did it, somebody could be controlling me in my sleep to do it using me. Like when somebody talked through me, to tell me to calm down, it wasn’t my voice. That was kind of funny, my dream was making me super anxious or something, and somebody said the name my family calls me, and to calm down, I immediately calmed down as well. I’d reckon, I wouldn’t have calmed down, if I told myself to.

And I need to read the S.T.O.P Obsessing book, it may or may not help, but worth a shot. I think that’s why it ended up on the bed a long time ago, they knew it was going to get way worse. They knew way before I did. I’ll probably read it on the Kindle though, that way I don’t have to find a piece of paper to use as a bookmark. And I bought the Kindle version as well. That is the main book I need to read. The other books, about Aliens or whatever, aren’t as important.

Update
We moved my bed, so you can see even less now. It isn’t on the wall that is shared with my neighbor anymore.

Update
Looked at the video again, probably me rolling over. So I guess sometimes when I rollover, the blanket gets pushed down, and my brain associates that with a creature being there. That doesn’t explain the Steam Deck’s good timing on waking itself up though. Like right when I get out of the bathroom, or right when I’m leaving. And those “coincidences” have happened more then once.

If the “Reptilians” exist, they might as well, and they have slaves on one or more planets, they could control them, by making your soul not awake or aware of anything. All they are using it for is to power the body.

There’s a story of a guy waking up in a different body, but apparently wasn’t supposed to be awake, or aware. And the Reptilians were behind it.

If you can have God, why can’t you have Reptilians? There’s already evidence, we aren’t from this planet. Blood rain had cells in it, like nothing else on this planet, and there was a meteorite nearby. Don’t think it was the entire meteorite, just part of it, it blew up.

Some people make no sense, they can believe God exists, but nothing else. The universe would be tiny if that was the case. Not to mention, we’d be long extinct if nothing else existed. Either by ourselves, or God. And then they’d make a new life, that isn’t as violent as us.

Now that isn’t possible if you are an Atheist. I guess in that case, you think food is powering your body. It’s keeping the body alive. But the body probably does nothing, without the soul.