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Perhaps humans aren’t ready to know we were meant to be slaves. But then again, that could be misinformation.

There’s no way to know if anything she says is true.

But people being killed for talking about stuff is BS. Like from the last Ancient Aliens, apparently a guy remote viewed an Alien/human base, and ended up dead. They cremated him, and didn’t tell his wife he was dead. Sounds like somebody poisoned him. You might be able to confirm that story, well not the Alien/human base part, the part of him dying, and being cremated, without telling his wife. That leads me to believe he was telling the truth of what he saw.

And no God still doesn’t make sense, yes Aliens may want to control us. But how does love exist without God? Not to mention, Tonka visiting me. Supposedly God made a dimension only humans can enter. They might as well be a God, if they can do that.

But God asking why humans don’t do what they made us out of, love, the Reptilians aren’t contributing to anything we do? Well, also, humans easily make very bad choices.

Sounds like whoever created us to begin with, could have had good intentions. But who knows. There’s actually a story, that they originally wanted us as slaves. But why would God make such a mistake to make slaves to begin with? None of it makes any sense whatsoever.

Thanks to nukes, we may go extinct, so there goes their slaves. I wouldn’t be a good slave anyways. If nukes don’t do it, there’s still global warming.

If it fades out on camera, it’s probably dust. And that UFO dust, must land on the ceiling. That is if you are judging where it’s going by what you see. Might just be close and going off camera. So tiny dust looks huge close to the camera I guess.

Enjoy the dust videos, I’m too lazy to delete them or dust.

Oh and the greys may be deceiving us, thanks to a crop circle for trying to tell us something. Says somebody is deceiving us, and there’s a picture of the classic grey Alien. Either they are warning us, or we are being warned about them. But also, whoever made it, could be deceiving us as well. So good luck.

Is it gray or grey?

Nothing has been waking itself up, like my monitor, or the Steam Deck. That’s enough proof for me, that it’s unexplainable.

Explainable, it wouldn’t have just stopped by itself.

Now how do I get them to come back? Might not have actually been that long since stuff stopped waking itself up. But that’s too long. Company I can’t see, is better then no company. Tonka will come here whenever she wants most likely. But I don’t know if she was waking anything up. I still think my dad was doing that.

I sort of have proof my dad was doing it. I was crying about having no relationship with him, and him being dead, and when I left the bathroom, something woke up, might have been the Steam Deck.

The only thing with less stuff happening, is I might not cry as often. They should still do it anyways, I probably need to cry 24/7.

My other site may never be restored, as still no response to my ticket, 6+ hours. The email didn’t tell me anything about it, and none of their sites seem to say anything.

Oh and they use PHP that doesn’t get security updates. I could ask for a newer PHP, but that’ll take 6+ hours for a response of “No”.

DirectAdmin doesn’t say what I need either.

Well, that’s why it’s cheaper, their support is slow as fuck. Their billing support isn’t as slow. Guess they wanted my money. Maybe I should uncancel the old hosting. And cancel this. Texas still isn’t a great place to host your site though, if you like free speech. Free speech as in, everything, including stuff republicans don’t like. Free speech isn’t just for some people. Or for some views.

6+ hours of downtime, if you have a problem. Wouldn’t recommend $2 a month hosting, if you need your sites online. Wouldn’t recommend shared hosting either.

If you go to Select PHP version, the actual page, not the widget, you can see other PHP versions, but changing it, does nothing, that is setting PHP 8.1 to the current. Or maybe you have to wait for the web server to reboot. Probably 6+ hours.

Update
Everything is fine now, new PHP is being used, and I have the SSH port. Don’t change the PHP version with the widget in the sidebar. That probably screwed it up. They should actually disable that “feature”. Disable the widget, not the entire ability to change PHP versions. If you change with that, and then with the other thing, the PHP version won’t change. You then have to email support to get it fixed. Remember, they manage it, you don’t. Which is good for security, not good if you are impatient.

At least, I’ll probably never need support again, only this site uses PHP. And that’ll probably always be the case.

Apparently there’s no official way to disable mouse movement from waking up the monitor. If using X11 in Linux. I could use Wayland, but who knows if that’s stable enough yet, and don’t know if you can prevent mouse movement from waking up the monitor using Wayland either.

If loud ass shit outside is vibrating my apartment, and the mouse slightly moves, then it’ll wake up. The Mac mini seems to require clicking a button. It has woke up for unknown reasons in the past though, the Mac mini.

The Steam Deck likes waking up too, and that’s without the USB switch on the Deck input or output or switch, whatever you call it. Not even on the Steam Deck input on the monitor either. And it had some suspicious timing once. You can wake it up by touching the screen. It doesn’t have a regular mouse always connected.

Good news is, the Mac mini is using less RAM, I guess killing the systemstats or whatever process every hour or whatever did the trick. So maybe I don’t need a Mac mini with more RAM. They brought back a memory leak with that process, I don’t know if it’s fixed in the latest macOS 12, I’m not updating to macOS 13 any time soon. I’ll leave the cron job enabled, as I’m too lazy to keep disabling and re enabling it. Apparently Apple doesn’t like fixing bugs. Just look at the Mac Rumors forum.

If it had more RAM, it might be able to run Guild Wars 2 though, with Crossover. But if I get a Mac mini with more RAM, I should probably get the max RAM you can get, since it’s soldered down. And how much is the M2 Pro Mac mini with the max RAM? Probably more then I’ll ever have.

I was in bed, missing Tonka, and I think another dog. I then felt somebody by me in bed on one side, then somebody else on the other side. Not sure if I felt two bodies by me at the same time, or they moved to the other side.

Also, can’t recall who else I was missing. Probably one of the other dogs I grew up with. Don’t know if I cried in bed or not, or was just missing dogs.

Well, the crying doesn’t ever stop, as when I woke up, I was crying in the bathroom. It doesn’t matter how many years it’s been since she died.

Do some people experience nothing after somebody they love dies? It’s hard to believe that would happen. If so, there’s probably a ton of variables involved as to why not. Could simply be whoever died, doesn’t want to do anything. Well, Heaven, is supposed to be so good, you never want to leave.

If you are praying for somebody who died, that creature will hear all your prayers. I assume that isn’t just people, but dogs will know too. They might get it all at once as well. Because time doesn’t exist there.

Believe what you will, free will allows you to. I still think having no free will to not believe in God would be better, so be a dog. Or do they have free will to believe or not God? It’s possible they just simply know about God. As far as I know, all dogs go to Heaven. Humans that’s debatable. Doesn’t mean you go to Hell, there’s also reincarnation. And proof for it. Simply not living as long as God wanted you to live, could result in reincarnation.

Hauntings sounds like a bad thing. Perhaps you should say love never ends.

The monitor finally got turned on for unknown reasons, I wasn’t even by it.

Perhaps those who I can’t see doing less, will accomplish more somehow. Too much interaction could backfire.

Believe what you will, I prefer to believe somebody I can’t see is waking the monitor up. I already know love doesn’t end when your body dies. Love wouldn’t exist without God.

The Blackwell Ghost guy already proved love exists forever. I doubt he’s making fake videos. He gets too scared for it to be fake, like sleeping in his car. And how do you explain that email that got sent that he didn’t do? Look at the time it was sent, and if he was sleeping, well there you go. Look at his history to see if he setup an automated email. Or just believe him, because he probably has no good reason to make it up. Once you watch the later ones, you’ll see something horrible happened to him. Well, to his entire family.

Thanks to free will, you can believe whatever the fuck you want. You can believe you are a robot. With no feelings, and no love.

Maybe my computer has malware, as it’s faster right now. Or maybe the Firefox extensions got updated, and made it faster. Or maybe I’m just going insane.

Wanted to remove the video plugin I had. On shared hosting now, so that plugin isn’t being used for new videos. You aren’t going to encode videos on shared hosting, at least not the shared hosting I have.

Also, the latest update to the plugin, causes issues with clearing the database in LiteSpeed Cache. It still does it, but also says there’s a problem with your site. Probably a security risk keeping it as well.

Felt like at least two creatures by me in bed this morning. One on each side of me.

Well, the first thing I noticed, was I woke up early, and felt pressure on my stomach, like somebody was by my stomach. Not sure if I was dreaming, or hallucinating, but saw a cat that looked like Oadis. I saw him on my actual bed. But not sure my actual bed, or just in my mind. That feeling wasn’t there when I woke up.

I may have been having issues breathing because of the pressure on my stomach, but I ain’t telling a cat or any animal with or without a body, to not lay by me.

I may have done a petting motion where I thought they were laying. Hard to remember, I know I thought about doing so. I’m pretty sure I was wide awake, so no idea why it’s hard to remember.

After that, I didn’t feel anybody by my stomach anymore, lower down.

If only two creatures, perhaps Buddy and Tonka. But I might have felt somebody by my back, not right by me though. Three creatures, is obviously all three of the dogs I grew up with, Buddy, Meiko, and Tonka.

If all three dogs were here last night, Tonka was probably the one not right by me.

It is Tonka’s bed, so she can go on it whenever she wants. Anybody can go on her bed, if she wants them on it. Maybe an elephant will visit me. Not sure how they’ll fit, I guess by not being in a body. It might be dead obvious if an elephant is on my bed while sleeping.

Remember, love never ends, it’s forever.

And the pressure on my stomach, may have been a message. Such as something wrong with me. Somebody’s living I think dog told them about something by pushing their head on their stomach or something.

I thought something may happen, I washed my bedding yesterday. And when I woke up too early, I then was thinking stuff happens in there all the time, I’m just not aware of it.

Sorry, no camera goes in my bedroom. I don’t want anything to stop happening, and I don’t want to watch myself sleep. Some people like being haunted. I consider everything they do as love. I suppose you could get a negative haunting. But I have complete faith in God, and the divine, that they will protect me.

Oh and I woke up actually somewhat happy today. But why did it take more then one creature to get the message of love across? I’m pretty sure Tonka has done stuff by herself. But I may just cry after she does something. No crying today. Perhaps seeing Oadis, did something. Even if I was hallucinating him. But why the fuck would I hallucinate a cat? I didn’t get scared.

I don’t really understand why I saw the cat, or why there was pressure on my stomach. I wasn’t any cat’s person, at least not as far as I know. Pretty sure he was my sister’s cat. But since Meiko might be here sometimes too, I wasn’t his person either. So I guess you don’t need to be the animal’s person for them to visit you.

They could have only been here because of love.

Oh and I think I knew Tonka was here, because I vaguely remember at some point saying something, Tonka’s name, and possibly I love her. Not sure when that was though. Also, don’t know how I automatically say stuff to her. I’m not intentionally doing it. It just happens. Perhaps that’s what happens when you get such a strong bond with anybody. The creature doesn’t have to be a dog, could even be another human. Love doesn’t care about the body.

I can also see other consciousnesses following Tonka here, like Buddy and Meiko, and possibly Oadis. He slept on the bed with the dogs and me, I think on my feet. For some reason he seemed to like the dogs.

Hard to believe everybody accessing this, is blocking Jetpack stats.

Also, according to MEGA, no bandwidth is being used.

Which means, I can safely cancel the hosting soon. No need to keep a site online, that is infested with bots. MEGA could be wrong, but who cares. I’ll just assume, this site is infested with bots. Just like all the other things I assume.

I’m sure there’s plenty of more interesting paranormal sites, that have something other then dust, and bugs, and monitors waking themselves up.

I may also just leave the site as is, and never put anything new on it. Or turn it into a porn site.

I don’t think MEGA uses bandwidth when I watch something myself. Still probably just bots access this site. So leave it as is, until the server can’t handle the bots anymore.