It’s been days I think since it woke itself up. No idea why it’s waking up. I prefer to think somebody I can’t see is waking it up.

I woke up depressed today, and possibly was crying in my sleep, I was in the dream. About the dead animals, and my dead dad.

No relationship with my dad, and him being dead, affected me. My mom may hate him, but he’s my dad. And when you die, you are aware of things you weren’t before, or at least a lot of people are. If God wants you to see what your actions caused, God will do so. Since God is love, if you’ve messed up at all, expect God to show you what it caused.

Apparently some people want both of their parents.

And how can you hate anybody? Almost everybody screws up. Screwed up more? You can let God decide if anybody screwed up more.

Felt like it. I sleep on my side, and the knee on the bottom, was out, so somebody could sleep on it. Possibly on my leg too.

Probably why I slept longer today. I don’t like waking up, when I feel somebody on the bed. If it’s my mind, too bad I don’t feel somebody on the bed every night/morning. I might not get out of bed anymore though.

If somebody was actually there, I can guess who was there, my only guess is Tonka though. I don’t think any of the animals slept on my knee like that when they were alive. So not really sure who would have been doing it, Tonka is the most likely though, she does know she can lay on me.

She was scared once, was laying on my sideways, and peed on me. I didn’t get mad at her or anything. I think I just took a shower. If you get mad at a scared dog for peeing on you, you are a bigger asshole then me. They probably shouldn’t have dogs if they get mad at them for peeing when scared.

According to Channels DVR, I record it, from TV Everywhere.

Good show, maybe not so much for an Atheist. Or do they believe a random event made Aliens too? I don’t think they believe Aliens exist.

Reincarnation is great, it makes you think you’ve never existed before. Perhaps that’s sort of true. Maybe cleansing the soul, means removing everything that is you, and making a new somebody.

Oh but consciousness can’t reincarnate. Problem is, consciousness doesn’t live in your body, or even your soul. If it’s a shared consciousness. I find it funny, when people think they know what consciousness is. We may not be killing ourselves with war and crap, if we knew what consciousness is. As we’d know a lot of other stuff too.

I’ll believe somebody that died, over anybody else. And people that have memories of a past life.

Woke itself up when I got out of bed for the second time. And if me getting out of bed wakes it up, should do that everyday, and probably every time I walk.

Either way, Valve hit a home run with the software, it can predict when you wake up, without you even using it. It’s idle most of the time. So it isn’t getting my wake up time, by the first time I use it in a day, which wouldn’t be the wake up time anyways, I take a shit before using anything.

That could be why the desktop wakes up, but might expect it to wake up way more often. The Steam Deck, that would probably only be the case, if the USB switch is set to the Steam Deck. Otherwise, you have to touch the screen or press buttons. Or maybe use the trackpad thingy.

The Mac mini requires clicking a button to wake it up, at least moving my mouse never seems to wake it up.

The Steam Deck and my desktop got woke up while gone today. The Steam Deck could also be software related, but kind of doubtful at this point. It doesn’t seem to happen everyday. How would they make that completely random and only on some days? You can test by putting a different Linux distro on it, I’ll pass though.

Perhaps the only unexplained thing happening, is the stuff in bed. And maybe the knocking I heard on the wall behind my computer. That wall I think is where the stairs are. They got good timing, knocked right when I got home, and only did it once. Not even sure you can knock where I heard it. Well, that is easily. And why only once? How would somebody not in my apartment know my reaction? And I doubt a living person knocking on walls in stairwells would care.

Oh and my S.T.O.P Obsessing book ending up by me in bed, I woke up with it by me. No idea how it got there. I suppose I could have grabbed it in my sleep and put it there. No camera is going into my room. Well, one camera can see somewhat in my room. Might be able to see where the book is. But I don’t expect to find the book again in bed. And they can just disable the camera and move the book anyways, so a camera is useless.

I’m too lazy to ask those I can’t see to do anything. I’d rather say “I love you Tonka”, then ask somebody I can’t see to do something.

You can’t hear any loud traffic when desktop or Steam Deck got woke up. But the microphone does suck on that camera.

You are sharing the same thing, you aren’t conscious without whatever the shared consciousness is.

The Earthfiles, lady said an individual conscious being.

She doesn’t study near death experiences? Or by individual, does she mean the entire human species?

God said to somebody that died, that it’s a shared consciousness. I believe them more then anybody else. They actually died.

How else do you think some stuff is possible? Like being psychic, apparently everybody is, just nobody knows or cares.

I already know I can leave my body. Too bad I can’t mediate anymore. And I’m too lazy to try to do so.

One or more animal may have been on the bed this morning. Somebody may have been by my stomach, and at least one creature on the other side. I may have been crying too, I was missing Tonka.

Light crying about the dead dogs I grew up with. Light crying, as I didn’t cry very long.

But I predicted something would wake up after crying. No bug woke the Steam Deck up, you can’t see any bug on the video. Even though a spider may have moved in. Now a spider could wake the Linux PC up without much effort, just crawl on the cable for keyboard or mouse, and that might wake it up, well maybe not the keyboard cable. If the mouse moves just a little, it wakes up.

But the Mac has woken itself up too, and that requires clicking a button. Not sure spiders weigh enough to click buttons. If somebody or somebodies I can’t see, are waking stuff up, no need to make it hard and leave it on the Mac inputs. The Deck is easy to wake up, you can just touch the screen. You don’t have to press a button.

If somebody I can’t see is waking it up, I can’t really answer who. I thought my dad was doing it, and confirmed it by crying about him, and then something waking up. It could all be a coincidence, at least that’s what scientists know. As scientists know you don’t exist after dying, we are just robots after all. I already know I can leave my body, so I don’t think that.

Conscious isn’t the right word for what people and animals and everybody else is. Apparently it’s a shared consciousness. That means, by yourself, you aren’t conscious. So I guess you can call it a soul. Or a life essence. If animals and all the other life, is sharing the same consciousness, I guess dogs know how to read and write, or they can.

And if this is a random event of life on Earth, why the fuck is almost if not all other life on other planets, humanoid? That is intelligent life, except I wouldn’t call humans intelligent, we are destroying our own planet. So they don’t believe any other life exists either, just like the majority of religious people.

I need to buy some of Rudolf Steiner’s books. One coupon I have for Kobo.com expires on the 1st I think. Think they sent me a 25% coupon too. When does that expire? Says the third, and only select books, and the 20% coupon seems to say the same thing, so might be useless.

That hasn’t happened for a long time. Usually is the Steam Deck that wakes up.

Guess HomeKit was working tonight, I got a notification when it woke up. Think I looked at it on my watch, looked like it was awake, when I returned, I checked the recordings, and it did wake up.

The software I use to make my camera HomeKit doesn’t always work, either it checks the camera for motion at the wrong time, or it gets updated and it’s fixed but then another update breaks it. I won’t be paying for their NVR. Ain’t worth the money, if the software doesn’t work for basic usage, I don’t want to pay to beta test the NVR.

I may have a new NAS, well not an actual NAS, more like an Orange Pi, coming soon. I may offload the security camera footage to it. Might wait though a while, until I have another drive to back it up to.

I didn’t want USB made drives, they don’t last as long, I don’t think. Didn’t bother with a NAS drive, costs only $20 or so more, but 7200RPM, that means it might be hotter, so got a slow ass compute drive instead. Not paying more for a WD drive that is less RPM, not worth it. And I have bad luck, the WD NAS drive might die too soon. I have a 6 TB compute drive that is fine, can be slow, but who cares.

I also need a drive to put in a fire safe, in case there’s a fire, or flood. The enclosure I wanted, a dual bay one costs too much, $160 I think before tax. Maybe I’ll buy it someday. I might buy that brand’s rugged 3.5″ enclosure, for one drive, for the fire safe drive. More protection the better.

And don’t buy anything from Amazon, unless you can’t buy it anywhere else. Slow ass shipping for some stuff. They don’t like shipping stuff together.

Maybe the Mac mini will get that $160 enclosure, an expensive Mac, needs an expensive enclosure.

Sounds like it doesn’t happen instantly. But if the time is backwards where you go when you die, does that mean you reincarnate before your last life? No idea, don’t think the times are linked.

Heaven has no time. So if you go there, I guess you aren’t coming back here. Humans may go extinct here, so I may have to reincarnate somewhere else.

The good news is, you really will have no idea who you were the last life. I think the cleansing process erases your memory, but if it can take a long ass time, good luck guessing who you were.

You probably aren’t somebody who died within 10 years of when you were born.

And most souls, may require seeing their entire family before reincarnating. Not sure how far back though. As then, you might as well see every human before reincarnating, go back far enough, you are related.

Is the amount of cleansing time the same for all humans? If so, maybe every human gets to see and reincarnate at the same time. That doesn’t exactly make sense, because new babies are being born. Guess not reincarnating to the same time.

Do they have straight jackets there?

Oh and God believes in free will, the only ones that don’t, are bad Aliens, and humans. God isn’t trying to control us. Humans try to control others, with religion.

Lookup Rudolf Steiner on a book site, like Kobo.com, Amazon sucks. Didn’t look it up on Amazon, I probably won’t lookup books on there anymore, Kobo is better. The coupons they keep spamming me with, is it the entire order? I got to buy some of their books. I probably won’t read em, but I’ll collect em. Maybe the power will go out.

Either way, I’m screwed, perhaps not as screwed as some people. I’ll let God decide that.

That might explain why I do absolutely nothing. But that may screw you too, you may reincarnate into nothing. Did they warn me? Wouldn’t do any good, I’m too primitive and stupid. They probably warned me about everything.

Hmm not being somebody who died within the last ten years, might be wrong. One guy reincarnated, and some of his family still alive. He got to meet his daughters. Except, he’s a kid now.

How he remembered that, but not the other place, I have no idea. Perhaps some directly reincarnate.

Well, good luck, saying what happens when you die, looks like it can be very different for everybody.